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This is Just Life. Things surely do not seem well at certain points of your life. It maybe beacause of our finite physical, emotional or even spiritual self at that certain point of time. Then times and times again we think that God does not deserve to ne laud! Even to the point of us being ambivalent. BUt God has been working in our lives hasn’t he? But it’s just our finite eyes just can’t see. Even as much as God has blessed you, we can still be not able to see it. Fundamentally it is cause by the following factors:

1- Not sensetive To God

2- Instead of thankfulness we grumble

3- The mindset

4- Lots more.

But that are the few. Thus i am Glad to be able to recongise God’s presence in my life. Even till today! things have changed! hasn’t it? But i do know that i will only want to cling on to the one who choose to love me without condtional. since i’m at this topic, i notice that i’ve love to use these few words- ‘I am so graced by God’. I know that is because of his grace, i have changed! despite HOw high the mountians i testify that God Grace has been with me! many times i make lots of stupid mistakes but i do know that i’m so graced by God! so graced! haha..

I am again thankful and grateful to God that he has never failed to be with me and also sending me friends which i can share with! ThankS!



dAVidpEtER:D:D:D

Thinking that everything WAS gone, i look up to him and say ‘father i need you!’. I know he will come. Surely and i never doubt. I will laud him for his faithfulness. That is how i feel at certain points in my life. God had indeed be faithful.

I was thinking of something today.

when i was a little boy(primary 1), i never thought that i could grew to these far. It was like a imposible thing for me to even hit the age of 15. Times files, doesn’t it? haha.. now i am 16 plus. when i was young i wished i could be an adult. But now how i wish i could reverse it. then again, why? think it’s due to certain regrets that i have. e.g. past mistakes. yup! but i still give luad to him for he plans my life for me.



Power is not bad. But do not be sucummed by it. Let it not master over us.(For Guys) as it is one issue that Guys face. Generally. haha..



Blessings:

1- Thank God for his grace.

2- Joe printed notes for me

3- Had someone to share my penny of thoughts with



rEmember that it’s not about the numbers but rather have we done it to our best. I’m elated!



DavIDPETER,

AMbIValent describes me at certain points in my life. Transitions do come in, don’t they? But one greatest blessing i think is that God is with me in those decisions that i have made or even going to make. YUp! Results are coming out soon. I have dreams. But do i want to jeopardize my plan or even distort it? nope i don’t. Thoughts do come in, don’t they? but as for me i really want to take captive of every thoughts i have and make it obedient to christ be it decision making. Christ like mindset exhort me to actually probe deeper in why i want to achieve what i desire to. Yep! and i’m glad that i’ve found christ. was poundering of a question today. what if my life was without christ? haha.. basically think i will pursue studies. then again life it’s not about just studying but knowing the creator of all. so i’m grateful for being called cum chossen by him. whao..

Oppsss… did i not mention that i went to watch the ‘incredibles’ today at plaza sing. with jian hao, si yua and chicky which was obivously our contact. damm nice. haha.. ermm.. when was the last time i caught a movie at the cinema? ermm. think months? that was with matt. we watched the exorcist if i’m not wrong. Yup then we headed for some local area network game-LAN gaming in cyberdome. Yup. This contact is a blessing from God. I thank God for being faithful by sending all these plpe to my life. YUp!

Was thinking over this statement as i was walking home. I don’t want to do things out of ritual. but rather out of my love for him.

sometimes i wonder that as pastoral leaders, we spend most of our time on the field and leave our house relatively early and come home late. What if one day there is a change? like you won’t need to go out that early? will there be a void? That’s why i exhort all to serve God with a clear focus and mind. Getting things clear.

I wonder aremost serving God because they just want to fit in their time or they are doing all these bascially because of they love God?

haha.. think some may not understand the point i am trying to deliver. As i think it is bad sentence structure. Yep! but i do hope you get what i meant. which is don’t serve God just because you want to fit in your time. But with the reason that you love God. i suspect that those who does that are work alcholics. haha.. which i used to be one! haha..



DAVidPeTeR

It’s has been years that i have not touch lan games. Today was the day where we went to play together. WIth the contacts! was like a blessing! haha.. so glad! i exhort all to strongly do SOW. it’s fun! haha.. then ya tomorrow gonna watch movie. the incredibles. haha.. with the contact. haha.. it just rox! then had a new record i set for myself today! i ran from my hse to orchard at a timing of 35mins with te traffic lights. haha.. that’s so fun! ermm.. shal;l not blog that much today!

hehe..

I felt ambivalent when i decided to stay home today from the morning till 3.30pm. that was like the first time in this year. I was mesmerised by what i did. It was an impediment towards me. Take time to enjoy few hours being at home. Manage to spend my time fruitfully at home. did some readings(newsweek), planning and type of a student notes for shpeherding which i had at 5pm. The lesson was growth lesson from paul- zeal. Yup! manage to at least spend it fruitfully! YUp! haha.. thus all those are a blessing. OMG! i tried the double filet of fish today! 1st time in my life! haha.. think there are quite some first time in my life today things that happened! tHat rox! YUp! according to agenda shepherding was supposed to end at 7pm but instead it dragged for good to 7.30pm. haha.. that’s so fun! then i head home. read nesweek again on bus. Now my knowledge of the world is expanding. stem cells heard of it? haha.. read and you will figure it out! haha.. oh know what? it’s a blessing that we are going to play lan tomorrow at amk with contacts and plpe. haha.. cool.. but tell ya the truth i sux at it big time. haha.. but who cares? God will anointed me! i will just do my best he will do the rest! haha.. so tomorrow think i will be exercising again! haha.. wonder should do gym or run? haha.. still in ambivalent state. haha… God is still faithful.



Davidpeter.

Figure Out the BlessiNgs in there.

There is a first time for everything. A time to hope and a time to love. haha.. in simple words there is a time for everything.



BlessINGS of tHE daY:

ermm.. prefer to do it in so paragraph form. yup!

si i kicked of this day at around 930 by a sms which was from my shepherd no.2 cum DL. It was that sms that sought of woke me up! which initially was supposed to be 9am. so i procrastinated. That’s the down side. Yup it’s like a hill with it’s up and downs. so headed to do my quiet time after that. was dramatic. it’s was like a sence that so (no words to subsitute). haha.. but it was fun though, spending time with God. I enjoyed it! then shared my heart to my closest 2. haha.. always tedious but God pulled me through. Attended WFL and it was truly great to be able to help shirls doing those stuffs. haha.. then saw those ce guys playing rubgy after the lesson. quite awe by it. nah.. it was like a mini one. bUt i am Kin on learniNg! haha.. everything i also wanna learn. haha.. so crap of me! but i love it! haha.. then had dinner at fat mama some beef rice. ermm.. nice? 4 stars out of 5. that’s quite good i think. Then i pass the cyber cafe saw those CE plpe and thanx God he provided rafel to go home with me. haha.. it was like we took a cab. haha.. oh know what? i finally understood how ben could actually stuff all those stuffs into a small bag to come for service. answer: small notepad. haha.. but it’s interesting. Good idea. why come heavy handed? haha.. good to apply. one thing i seriously give thanks for again is the plpe he placed in my life. This time round is priscilla. haha.. today it’s the first time talking with her over the phone like 30mins? so long. was honest and shared some of the things i felt with her. Thsi time was out of a claim mind. Actually i typed out a 2 pages long letter from MS word. But decided not to type any longer but just call. haha.. i felt glad after that. at least my leader knows what is happening to me! or i will be dead! haha.. but i seriously thank God for all those plpe who shared their life with me and mine to them. without them think i may be dead as well. God did not make me for a relationship with him but man. THANx BRo. those CENtRAl anD nORtH plpe! YeP! FRagIle life ThIS IS. haha.. YeT AftEr aLL tHESE i can sTIll Say IT’S not all 10ST! I’m stILL hOLdiNG on to You! ROx!



wonder if it’s true that plpe blog politically in their blog?

shouldn’t it be a place where they express themselves? if ya know of any let me know.





LEArNinGS:

1- OnE GIVE bIrTh to 2 and 2 gIVES BIRTH tO 3 AND 3 Gives birth to everything.

it’s like understanding more for me today. haha..



DaVIDPEtEr:d:d:d

ImagIne me withOUt you? i think life will sucks. i can’t survive at all! okay. fine! not the extreme! but no meaning to life. a sense of melancholy will fall upon me. that’s ture! you refers to JesUS



BleSsinGS of The Day:

1- tONE up my boDy by goINg to GYM AND SwIm. – do ya know it’s a stupid way of execising! haha.. long story.

2- Had many thanksgiving point that i can thank God for in my ministry

3- ACcOuntaBiLITy is a blESSing. many times i struggled with accountability but let me tell ya i’ve overcome it with God simply bacuse i who i am in God! yup! it’s such a relief to account! haha.. cause simply i have God’s grace in my life and i hate sin!

4- BlesSiNGS in terms Of $$$. haha..

5- had great friends who helped me in my teaching which i made. They added on for me! haha.. Ben and HArrY. Plpewho i can trust! Yep! i can’t imagine if God did not place them in my life! i will be so screwed up esp with english! haha.. i love english!

6- OliviNE lend me a newsweek as well

Looks like i have lots of reading to do! that rox!

7- Thank God for Ben for helPing me TO REedit a teaching which had certain errors!



Oh i learn new words today:

1- Rear end orifice – not a nice word.

2- demeanor

3- and more. haha.. all in newsweek!



okay! so busniess to deal now:

It comes across our mind when we are given 2 choices. MAny times we would want that choice that benefits us. But i guess it paramount to your heart desire on who you want to please. when the thought of sinning comes (e.g. lying, greed, lust and more) how do you deal with it? Trying to touch it and hoping you will not sin? or a direct no? it thus reflects on who we choose to please after?

since i’m on the topic about pleasing God or other things, i would like to post to all those reading this blog a question- When you account, who do you want to please? are you telling your leader all the good things about you only? if so, let me ask another question are you fearful that you will be debased in the eyes of your leader? hmm.. questionable. i have learnt this in my walk with God that i’m not here to please my leaders but God so why is it so hard for some of us to account?

cause they think to highly of themselves.

We are sinners saved by his grace.

That’s jUST whaT I WANna share.



DavidPetEr

Grateful is the word. presence is the answered prayer. once again let me re de-clare it once again. God is faithful towards me. he has always been with me through my ups and downs. never has he left me or forsaken me. he blessings never failed to be upon me. simply numbers do not matter to me but not on the extreme that i don’t have feelings anymore. don’t let failures harden your simple heart. God told me just clearly these things during serivce and after that as well. presence and trust. be grateful. though fruits may not come in i will not give up or look down on my ability that God is still working on. why? it’s God who choose me and only he can remove me. i won’t want to quit. JUST WACK! think that’s been my favourite 2 words recently. it brought a sense of elatedness to me. Just wack sounds good to me. it’s has it’s meaning in it. where did i get this words from? good question to post. from acjc track t shirt if i’m not wrong.



Once again i want to re affrim what i have always said. God has place plpe around who are blessings to my life. plpe who hear me out and listen to my wacky stuffs and even going supper with me.



few plpe:

North:

BranDon

JosEph Lum

DAvid Ong

pRISCillA taN

gAry sUE

wEI sONg

AlOYsiUS



EasT:

dENNies



CenTaRL:

MattHEW

bEn

HArry



SHeep:

nORTH c

sI HAn

ZHi hao

JonaS

tEcK yaNG

SI YUAn



NOrth B

SenG Fu



sHeep do mean a lot though many times i get bite. from another perspective i view it as it’s a growth point for me.



BlessIngs of THE day:

1- coOL dmm at maRks and spANcer. cool huh? what a slow pace mood it gives.

2- Caught My last train to transfer to NEl

3- had supper. (real supper) like round 10 odd. with maTT AND one more pERSOn. from acs(i). oppsss they lame with me together. haha..

4- newsweek from HArry

5- How faithful God has been with me. never left me

i’m prepared that if one day i feel distant away from God it’s God testing for my maturity. it’s a decision to choose to position myself in a spot to meet God. yup!

6- great friend i have! ben and haRRy!

wonder how they can stand my lameness and sharing? haha.. so i count it as a blessing that God place in my life.

sometimes i really wonder what if God did not place all these plpe in my life. think my life just plainly sucks. opss.. not a nice word. But it’s true! i’m grateful for being with me! ya!

7- had a great supper. ermm.. some noddles. first time eating at the orchard open area. while i was waitign for the food, i had a question. what if it rains while people are still eating? haha.. can’t imagine!



oH TOMORRow RDMM startINg aT 5pm. whao. so late for first time. it’s gd! so i can plan my time in the eailer slot and do some exercise. like swimming and gym. haha..

DavidpEter.

If I PERish i PeriSH!

that’s my heart cry! haha..

blessIngs of The day:

1- Not beIng latE

2- Had time on the bus to hear from God

3- mEt jJ today and he looks bettER

4- Had extra dosage of food given by the stall owners and i couldn’t finish it! haha..

5- Thanx God for my Buddy that came to find me! haha..

6- hAD plpe whoi can share my life with

7- THANKful that i hit goal

=it’s not the numbers that MattERS but the heart that matters=



LeaRnIngs:

1- ExcEL FOR God’s KinGdoM

2- cHECK mOTIVE

3- tHOUGH I may not fuLLy understAND I WILL choose to trust HiM FUllY



life is just only travelled once. melancholy feeling do pour upon me at times. but i still can look to my creator! and say that he is faithful! i long to be over elated and at euphoria. It will be the day that i meet you.



My heart cried once again: i will not want to leave you. Your presence in my life has alwyas been so real. Keep me in your love. That’s all i ask.



DavidPetER

started OFf with a callIng. same like me. then was obedient to it and left the comfort zone. Things didn’t seem to be as expected. continued to trust God. things just doesn’t seem right. it seems he has left. is he still there. on the verge or giving up this relationship he appeared again giving direction. things work out right again. time move on and the person that you love went away. calling seems to not be real any longer. started to turn back on him. saying that ‘i don’t need you anymore’. has he left? no. he came back to him real again. he choose to re commit again. this time stronger. and his calling was fulfilled.

it move me as i read the whole story from the book fifth mountain. That was surely a bad summary. i could senese the euphoria at the instant i finished reading the book. i set aside time at esplanade today to complete the book after meeting si han.

God has always place things at his correct time.



If i perish i perish.



nice phrase i think.



seriously thankful for all those things you have place in my life.



won’t go much in depth.



i am just so blessed with the plpe around me.



haha..



i decided to start studying. ermm.. tell ya the truth i agree with harry that gravity on physic a level is tough. i was just reading through that and it’s like. whao..



but it’s still manageable i think.



yup! going to esplanade again tomorrow! haha.. :):)



DavidpeTeR

If i perish i shALL PerisH THen.

My life is at STAke but sAfe in his HAnds!

sTAKE? NOT sure.

haha..

i know! satan wants to kill me. haha..