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Plants are shaped by cultivation and men by education. .. We are born weak, we need strength; we are born totally unprovided, we need aid; we are born stupid, we need judgment. Everything we do not have at our birth and which we need when we are grown is given us by education. (Jean Jacques Rousseau, Emile, On Philosophy of Education)
Another quote that i abstracted from what i read. Yeah it’s true isn’t it? we are shaped by the educational system that’s is so much so that’s why church have to teach well. Sound doctrine and holistic teaching as well.
I was at the end of my tether after the run i had with jeremy and alvin round 10 odd. God nv fail to send me friends. These are really good old pals. Eversince young. haha.. went to jog and manage to catch up with each other more over the table eating. supper. haha.. it’s nice ah. then i suggested that next time when we grow up, we should all live on the same block and level. Then our wives will have cooking roster. so we just head over each other house for meals daily. haha.. quite funny. but then still good friends. opps. did i not tell you that usually i will have bouts of sleep during chinese exam and not this time. i sought of did my extreme best and God bless me. =) simply grateful. Sometimes i’m really at such losse ends that i become in the like minds of two. looking at peope just makes me stress at times. NOt really stress but sadens me bah. But i know i have a God that i can trust. That’s it. A God that i can hold on to inspite of the tough trials. yeah. He’s faithful huh. yup. my top blew off when i somehow looked at the condition of my table today. Ultra messy. Quite typical. Finally had time to clear it up. Yeah. I need you. Glancing through everything, i just want to say ‘God i thank you for everything you have done.’
David

.. by nature man is a political animal. Hence men have a desire for life together, even when they have no need to seek each other’s help. Nevertheless, common interest too is a factor in bringing them together, in so far as it contributes to the good life of each. The good life is indeed their chief end, both communally and individually; but they form and continue to maintain a political association for the sake of life itself. Perhaps we may say that there is an element of good even in mere living, provided that life is not excessively beset with troubles. Certainly most men, in their desire to keep alive, are prepared to face a great deal of suffering, as if finding in life itself a certain well-being and a natural sweetness. (Aristotle, Politics)
Recently i’ve a keen and fond interest towards Philosophy. Not that i completey believed there stand but there is this sense of conviction of thiers when they write. I’m reading for person view on this topic more. Fundamentally speaking, it’s imperative that one is strong in the word before he/she studys philosophy.
Looking at the above quote by some guy which was supposed to be quite famous then and not now to me. Apparently he looks like a no man to me. yeah. Actually he’s trying to bring the fact that man are selfish, aren’t they? you come together only for self benefit. But when you meet Jesus is it true? Well, frankly speaking i think that it’s not true. Why? We love another not for self benefit but rather to choose to love God. Well then does that means that good life? hmm.. maybe no. Cause who knows what may bump to you next instant. yeah. So it does nto mean we all will experience good life daily hur. yup. The good life bring as a goal seek not to be an eternal goal.
… the default law that sets in every single indiviual seems to be the actions of the flow of motion. The goal of pursuing what others pursue seems to be a deciding factors for each self. Nevertheless man have come to a stage where decisions seems to be made no longer by using their ability to think but rather follow instead. Controlled by overpowered circles, the sucummed to it. Certainly most people do that to be on a safe pathway. (DH)

So fun. haha.. what a day i had today with God. yup.
bLessings of the day:
1- though it was raining i was not washed over by the poured
2- top my calss with a pathetic mark for geography but still gd
3- able to handle the tedious question given by the boarders at MOE. did i tell you that i got lost? Clumpsy acts of mine.
4- being able to fellowship with my sb. JARVIN. yeah. i really aprreciate him. Wondeful freind that i hav. yeah. we went to KAp to study together and he helped me in my chinese. yeah.haha. then we met hannah too. all studied. they were doing theirs we were doing ours.
5- able to sought of memorize few new chinese words to me.

David
Perhaps someone will say: And are you not ashamed, Socrates, of a course of life which puts you in danger of the death penalty? To him I may fairly answer: You are mistaken, my friend, if you think that a man who is worth for anything ought to spend his time weighing up the prospects of life and death. He has only one thing to consider in performing any action; that is, whether he is acting rightly or wrongly, like a good man or a bad one. (Socrates, as written by Plato in The Apology)

Wars, factions, and fighting,’ said Socrates as he looked forward from his last hour, ‘have no other origin than this same body and its lusts. … We must set the soul free from it; we must behold things as they are. And having thus got rid of the foolishness of the body, we shall be pure and hold converse with the pure, and shall in our own selves have complete knowledge of the Incorruptible which is, I take it, no other than the very truth.’ (Socrates)

Our Essence of Mind is intrinsically pure. All things are only its manifestations, and good deeds and evil deeds are only the result of good thoughts and evil thoughts respectively. Imagination, thought and will make deeds, and by our deeds we make ourselves. All that we are is the result of our thoughts; it is founded on our thoughts, made up of our thoughts. (The Patriarch Hui-neng)

‘What i do not mind is that if students do not understand but have the attitude to learn!’ grup over the ends of the classroom from the rear and she left the room. Hollered vocies went over the air of the class ‘Who actually cares what is she talking?’. Many times this is the typical scene in class, isn’t it? The teachers today may have tons and loads of experience but to their horrific discovery it seems that nothing is working well. It’s a unbelieveable loneliness they have within them. May i put the word uncertainity across their hearts. Simply, methods have to change. No matter how ever loads and donkey years of experience you have, the world is changing at a rapid vrlocity. The blazing anger within them leads to no solution untill they will be humble to change certain methods.
PASSION. The complexitiies of this word is great, isn’t it? Yes. Passion. That never ceasing flame. ‘ I do not mind if students like sports and as long the really like it, go ahead and pursue it and make sure they excel in it and give their best.’ said convictedly Mr. Passion for teaching? Has that passion blew off for most teachers? Maybe. Why are they teaching? responsibility? or because they love it?
God has never failed to astonised me with great and loving teachers in my life though some are the controvesal. Upon my first meeting with the chinese teacher, she left me with an impression that she knows what she is doing. Not many know thiers. Just teaching? She knows that she is doing it with her never ceasing flame. The spark that gilters her eyes is when students give her the never dying to learn attitude.
yEAH. God thank you for sending such a wonderful teacher.
So blessed that i spent my 2 hours fruitfully at KAP today with lum. Precisely, that’s why i went there. It’s been long since i last went. The last visit i had was on ermm.. last year oct? yeah. haha. we left round 10.30pm. haha. but then again studying chinese is so much lighter note now. haha.
love jesus =)
(“,)

David

i’ve finally have time to air things out a little. Cannot believed the fact that i mused over a coordinare geo question for more than 1/2 an hour. The never burn out flame just won’t give up till i get to the solution. Then again i have to admit defeat now. I tried but somehow it seems not to get it. It’s last year question during november paper 2 question 11. I have this guard that something is lacking in the question or the usage of vectors or even similar triangles. Somehow.. i still can’t figure it out. i am not going to make a mountain out of this mole. What’s the use? decided to ask teacher tomorrow. Yeah. What a day for me. Time files in a glimpse of an eye. Never know what to expect from the earth. A undecisive planet i am living on. This is just a place where i will be staying for a while. Not that long. I am glad that God has been showing himself faithful in my life. Now that he’s in my life everything completely change. Tremedously. Actually i am a novice in life transformation but it’s he who is not that enable me too.
Yeah. What a day i had today. Seriously. God rewards the faithful. If you do your best God wil do the rest.
alright. For those who REALLY know me, you know how delightful my chinese can get, can’t ya? It’s so wonderful that the marks are like the roses that are red. Maybe i will say that it attributed to the fact of the not up to date experience of the farmer. I am like a flower being water with the warmth of God’s love through people. But somehow a gardener that pours water of me seems to be a wrong bucket of it. Chinese teacher that can’t teach. Yeah though she maybe in this line for years but methods do change, don’t they? So precisely for past months i suck damn bad at the horrific sight ot the excurciating colours of marks i get. 20/60 or even 15/60. Put it this way, i actually wanted to give up hope on it and drop chinese bah. thank God for my wonderful buddy: jarvin. he spur me to do well in chinese. Which was like less than a week ago? Alright. I then decided i will try one more time. As hard as i tried, things does not seems to get anywhere better. few days more to mid years. what hack am i doing? I tried. But failed. The God sent a chirstian chinese teacher into my path today and how i wish she is my chinese teacher. She gave me private coaching from 3-5? yeah. I thought it’s like 30 minutes when she will just cover the format but she made me memorized it. Phew. I really appreciate it. Thank You God that you did not give up hope on me when i feel like hang chinese in the mid air. Thank you. It starts with that chinese dict that jarvin lend me and it keep me on going till today. So i want to tell my dearest buddy that he’s appreciated in my life. But my love language is still time. haha.. not gifts. yeah. yeah. yeah. hmm.. i will go and do some mugging for chem and chinese before i call it a day.

Thought of the day:
Apple by nature can be green or red but being red it means it’s sweet then green is sour. What can this apple do if colours are gone? Will it retain it’s chacteristics? The outer that feels that inner contirbutes.

David

it was an apple of my eye. Never did it once caught my attention for that few deafening moments. The look of it hunts one but still an apple of my eye. Maybe i am a extremist but i like it. Liking refers to a heart affection i mean. The spilling of the grose blood. The never ending chase. The wide open flesh that undergo excruciating death. The moans from the womans from the street made me realised how much this person meant to them. Who is he? What so great about him that he must undergo such painful death? Is he a bottle neck? Some say he is. I supposed he is too. A bottle neck to hell? Under that harsh conditions yet he stood firm. Never it it once never strike across my mind the wramth of that love showerd upon me. Then did i just realised his name was was.. i will not murmured as i say his name. JESUS. he loves me? really? maybe all those stories i heard about him is true. Fine. i want to know you.

Do not ask me why did i place that weird entry in this blog. not weird. But it’s just out of personal inspiration. haha..
Finally i can blog. Got rid of that stupid thingy. It hinders me from loads of work. Frozen as i stared infront of my screen i did and never thought i kinda got it off my back.

This few days has been a great wk. =)
basically in short:
1- unit broke goal
2-2 cgs
3- wondeful buddies. jarvin got for me a cup and dict and talked with him till close 2 yesterday
4- matt- finally caught up with him for a EARLY breakfast at holland v.
5- aces my ss
okay. time to sleep

DAVID

Through the dark corners as i walked home i gazed upon what had happened today. Simply my mouth has gone lost for words. The words was lost on the way to may mouth. But i know it’s his grace being with me.
North C have finally broke their goal. Today is the day that they have been waiting for. To see 2 diffrent care groups and finally they made it through today. Through the thick and thin we have grown. I am very proud of them. I delight to see them Grow. All credit goes to God love for them. Never once was i noever amazed what God has doen in the group. Initinally it seems completely impossible but it’s not. We celebrated the breaking of 2 CGs at holland V and i must tell you that the cafe blew me back. It was so.. Great ambience. We sat on the wooden planks which are the floor. It is a little japaness style.It was surely the first time for everyone of my DMM plpe. Speaking of which, we have one new shepherd today. Victor. Claps. More plpe pushing the kingdom of God forward. Yes Sir! Amen! yeah. I love God! We had a great time over there. Our focus for this coming month is S CUBE:
Spirituality – relationship with God
Sustaining- 13 people
Studies- One hour daily except saturday
yeah. after which TY and SY came for CLM too. They made it with 2 CGS.God has simply been faithful.
Yeah.
More than that i want to say that i love my buddies. I love matthew and jarvin.
I am not sounding gay here.
But really.
finally able to catch up with them face to face and talked for a few moments today. I really enjoyed it. Serious. I love them.
Did i not tell you that jarvin lend me his chinese dict and brought the cup for me?
so loving. haha.. felt so appreciated. yeah.
God.. i really feel so loved by you through them. yeah. thanks a lot man.
David

i do not know about you but for me i do not like mono syllabic answer or even expression. The merely expressed a look of disatisfaction which leads you only to figure it out through inferring. Why would people give a monosyllabic answer or expression? Well, like all happenings, no factor can stand in isolation. So i belived that it is not only for a praticular reason that the beings bahaved in such a manner. The rationalise that i am making is that no factor can stand by itself. Likewise, in our daily enhancing walk or race with God. Not only is it the fact that some eccentric answers people give like ‘ I do not recived much renewal due to my shepherd did not hear me out.’. Ultra rubbish. This factor is only one of the supporting factors. Why not put it this way? I procrastinated in seeking for renewal due to the fact of viewing time management as inconsequential. Yeah. Let’s all just be honest people.
Just a quote i was thinking of today and it beholds unthinkable meaning to it.
‘do not settle for an average life’
How many of us are just simply so comforted by the average life we are living? Pushing yourself to no ends. Just reamaining at the couch of your own. Likewise for kingdom of God, do not sit on the couch and hope for things to happen but let’s go and make an impact. You are on earth for a reason. Fuandamentally speaking, you were made for a relationship with God and to let him be known. So what are you waiting for? The cow dung to drop from the sky? It’s a metaphor. Understanding that this metaphor souds ridiculous. meaning it will never come to pass.
I rather be meticlous in my life with God. Not the extrem of being legalistic. Yeah. yup.
Anxiety stabbed me when i was about to recieve my results for my physics test. It seems to me getting a 21-22 range of marks would be the highest possible result i am able to recieve. yeah. 20 is expected from me i thought. Hope was shining in the darknees while i heard the result i got. Never did i thought that i can get 25/30. It’s like whoo. I went frozen as i sat on the chair and i remembered it’s God blessing. This week, for a math test same thing. Same principle. haha.. won’t go to that much depth. yah. hmm.. last but not least.
I love my sheep!
i love my buddies!
I love JESUS!

david

whatever decisions we make, the consequence we bring it upon ourselves. It’s simply a matter of choice. Hope is that that stream of water flowing within me. yeah. today have been a day which is relatively tiring for me but i’m still amazed at God’s faithfulness in providing me with strenght. yeah. haha. hmm.. sought of tired now. yawns. going to mug my last last breath for geography before i call it a day. moreover God’s faithful. yeah.

david

felt as if i was trapped in a cupboard that i never know when it will be opened. Light never penerates in. I wished i can see the light that can at least hits my face. The feeling of the warmness was what i longed for. Never did i thought that you would come to open that door and i have found freedom in you. My first step out of the darkness was much with joy and not knowing what to expect from the light as i have been kept in the dark. Walking along the road and taking a look at what you have installed for me makes me wonder why do you go to the extreme of doing so? Am i really that worth, i questioned. You came right infront of me and said these few words that melted my heart. ‘ this is how much i loved you.’ Never did i felt so loved till i met you. You did not just allow me to step into light but gave me life.

Murmured thorugh the screen of my computer i asked ‘ Does anyone uinderstands how i feel?’. I do not need people to tell me to speak my mind now and command me. I need people in this race with me together to complete our unit goal. as the date draws neaer, my haert is ranching. I need God and my team. Yeah. turth be it is that i loved my team and i know that they are doing to their utmost. I need you to understand. And i know you did. You did not come ot corrrect me but to shower your love for me. You are the only one that i can turned to now. All is gone but left you.

It’s not totally gone. why? i have you! Because of you, the team and me are gelled together firmly and strong!

Before i call it a day, i give praise to God that he pulled me through my a math test. I thought i would get a c6 but a A instead. Thank you Jesus.

Time files that i have no tiem to smell the flowers. i will one day. When i hit my unit goal. will take time to dwell in the nature surroundings which i loved.

David

never felt that much luck before in his entire life.
muse upon that single statement and it makes no sense at all. define luck? by chance? meaning that any thing could just happen by chance? Someone must have behold this chance then i supposed.
bottle neck is never my belief. No one is a bottle neck in this kingdom. Dawn with all his awestruck love in our lives, we are all of value.
the complextities of our mind is the kind that makes us fall. Thinking is never wrong. But when you think, let the word of God come in.
leap as i anticipate for 23rd of april to approach. i belived that it’s possible. CHS it’s yours! Mshs and RI is yours as well. God i’m mravellously thankful for you.
i want across this empty street and you are the only one for me. i need you in my life.
yeah. haha. hmm.. had a fun day today.

ohhhh.. i went holland v. it’s super super nice ah.. don’t miss out the starbucks. the ambience will blow you off like how it did to it. i feel that i have fallen in love with it. the seats. oh mine. so cool ah. haha.. bringing my dmm there this saturday. i kinda of like holland v and will make it my retreat spot. it’s like heaven to me. i love cafes. haha.. it has tons of them there. yeah. then went to do some project follow by cutting hair which calls for a day. haha.. the end. much blessing in studying. i love God more than cafe. yeah. my stand but i still love cafe. yaeh.

david