think about thoughts

never did i thought all these were ever incredulous.
It’s possible.

I just want to make my point clear as crystal.

Kingdom Citizen have Kingdom Rights as well as Kingdom Responsibilites.
When one sees any problems it’s his/her responsibilites to do something and not mull over things.

That’s my reason for what i’m about to do.

It’s never about one’s talent but about your HEART for the lord.

david

when you know the decision that was made by now,
you might be thinking ‘why’, trying to survey my deeds to firgure out why.

i will simply state why i did things they way i choose too.
‘Does he really like this decision?’, this might be running through your mind.
No. Formality is what i would prefer.
Family is what i appreciated and always treasured.

I’m doing this because of his saving hands and love has always been with me.
It’s also almost like done with the work here.
This one year, the family ties i have made.
The tears i have sherd was because of love.
Those trying moments was being transcend by love for man because i’ve been saturate by his love.
Responsible is what i’ve grown over this one year in this family and 2 years you have took care of me.

What i’m about to do must not cause you to be awestruck.
Because we live for him, don’t we?
I hope that i have trained you guys up well.
Strong man of God.
This one year i’ve seen so many ups and downs but it’s His love that kept me ongoing.

The reason i’ve made this decision is because of love and compassion for people once again.
Tough it might seem but i’m going with his love.
I treasure and love all of you.

You have made this one year worthwhile for me.
We might be naughty at times but i still believe in all of you.

I always trust and blieve in all of you and i want you to lead them as how jesus would do it.
Many times my leading it’s not the best but i just know that it’s him that i’m following.
Thus i have given him my life.

Take my life for i’m yours.

david

i live to one decision.
call me dumb or stupid or whatsoever you like.

once the decision is made i will not turn back anymore.
this is just where i belong not for long.
i know that you have enabled me to so what you need to.
This family i will have a place in my heart.
Silent tears will break from my heart.
But i’m going to be strong with you.
I have live not to regret this decision that i will make.
This path i will choose i will not turn back.

you have played such a part in my life.
I love you.
i mean it from the depth of my heart.
You all have made me who i am today.
No matter what this family, i will always remember and love you.

But i’m going to step out now.
out to this land that i will never know what might crash on me.
But i have him.
Goodbye. i will still move on.

I will stand strong and not be pushed down by waves.
I love all of you.

STAND STRONG AND GROWING MY BROTHERS.
i LOVE ALL OF YOU.

i live not to regret this DECISION that i choose.
This path i might be alone but never lonely.

I have sink deep into thoughts about this day.
Time to go against myself.
I am not turning back anymore.

Even as the decion is made,
i urge this north conquerous group to live up to your calling.
Boys to Man.
Love God love people!
Catch my spirit man.
I never want to return again if things are still the same.
i love all of you.

David

Time. Something can never be brought, sold or even borrowed.
This race is not one that he has given to me wrongly.
It does test me, mould me and shaped me.
Never did i once say it was a breeze.
Because i know he only promised me peace.
well. think about it.
He didn’t promise me the world of friends.
But he did promise me his presence.
Well. think about it, david.
What’s more worthwhile then his presence.
Sometimes we just simply wished that we will have never even known him, isn’t it?
But think about, what life will be without him?
Fun. Yes.
but after a hardcore day of fun.
Honestly where can it boils to?

Friendships of the world and this kingdom are world apart.
Choose for yourselves.

Never be so blinded but what’s temporal.

This was a rush post.
Just a thought when my fingers landed on this entry.
=)

Meanwhile, it’s 3.03 in the morning.
DAVID HOE. WHAT ARE YOU DOING ONLINE!
eh. apparenly. Melvin is showering. so i’m waiting for him.
I’m at his hse.
It was a impromptu event.
but still God i thank you for such a honest friend like him.
When i count my blessings, i will never fail to thank you for this spiritual family though and also the friends that you have given. Help me to always remember ya goodness.
As tough as this race might get,
oceans may rise,
thunders will roar,
earth may shake,
storm may ruin,
and even if the world was to collapse.
Help me to remember your hands with me.
WILL I LIVE TO REGRET THIS DECISION?
answer: for me to know and for ya to find out.
He’s out! i better stop now! whahahha.
still. Thank you jesus.
david hoe…

how can his hands not emplace things in the right footing?
God, to me. You have never ever let me go.
I tried to run away at times but your hands seems to be like the blood that flows through my vessle.
You never seem to let me go.
All i did was to ask you and you answered through my friends, e mail followed by my quiet time.

I thank you jesus.
I have made up my mind once again that i will not do life alone.
You have encircled me with friends that have played a consequential role in my life.
I love the friends you have given me.

God i thank you for having a wonderful buddy, Jarvin.
Thanks for letting him to be part of my life.
I appreciate all those friends you gave me.
Same goes for melvin who comprehend certain things that not many could.
Thank you jesus.

The test gets tougher and tougher.
I’m ready.
Here i am, shoot whatever you got.

David

it’s been long since i last walked down the streets in town.
Gazing at the shining lights that evokes off from the LED.
Looking at the streets which were covered with cars.
Walking down the streets aimlessly but with many questions that bombarded my mind.
As much as i choose not to think about it,
i knew it will never stop flowing.
I knew i had to make a decision and things cannot carry on this way.
I tried many ways to forget about it but the ‘washer devil’ never seem to entertain me.
Reality slice through my flesh.
As deep as my thoughts could go, i let it sink.
‘Did i do anything wrong?’ my inner voice accent with a sense of husky sound.
It kept resounding within me.
Coming to this conclusion, i asked myself.
‘why must it always be i’m at fault?’.
‘Has it all got to do with me?’.
I thought about things.
I decided i’m not giving in this time round.
I checked if i’m prideful.
There was not angle of it.
All i wanted was to know why must i always be wrong?
Simple concern got misunderstood.
‘Why?’
I’m not going to be the dog you called.

It occurs to me that if true friends even exist now. It’s such a superfical word.
God you painted so many incidents today.
Harry, melvin and him.
What were ya implying to me?
i cannot decipher your acts.

It all happened close to one year.
Maybe i will swim in this ocean alone again with you.
I will encricled myself with you alone.
All those are just part of me now.
Maybe.

Father,
my question to you is still this.
Am i in wrong?
if i am, i’ve said sorry to ya and the party.
But why must it happens this way?
A slight concern got to be understood.
Your child,
david

*** btw. this is all just thoughts.
i hope it will never be real.
NEVER
ONLY THOUGHTS

hello again. as promised. I will blog for today.
It’s not blank to me that blogging have not been part of me recently.
Then again, i cannot believe this. It’s my 401 post.
I’ve been blogging since last year and time indeed flies. Just by a glance or so, a year have passed.
thus it becomes my 401 post.
why am i making such a long deal over it?
apparently, i do not know why.
But still. It gave me a shocked when i saw that it was a 401 post. Stop making a big deal over it, DAVID HOE!

well. i shall just move on to what i want to unleash out from my heart to this little rectangular box.
cradle to grave? sounds nice. that’s out of the topic.
well. hmmm. time files. indeed. I just come to realize recently that i’ve been spiritual buddy with jarvin for a year already. Taking a quick flash back of this one year, i must say that i really have been strengthen a lot by his encouragement and being truthful with me. I surely appreciate this brother a lot! Just on monday, i was counting all those people i treasured a lot in my life during my retreat. i really appreciate all of them.
well. highlights of my past week:
1- had our sub district bro’s night. it was surely interesting.
2- i ran 15 km today.
that’s what my short term memory mind can recalled
i don;t wanna blog now!
com ultra lag.
full stop.
david

this is my no. 400 post. i was flabbergasted when i saw the number 400.
eh. i think i will blog more tonight.

went to watch harry potter today with melvin.
relatively a gd effects show.
melvin is a gd friend frm what i think. =)
whee.
eh. i think i want to go and PRAY NOW!
AND I’M SO CONVICTED
GET OUT OF THAT PIONNERING STAGE!
DON’T CARE JUST WACK!

DAVID

there’s an URGENCY in this HOUR.
we as children MUST obey.
GOD is MOVING.
can you HEAR the sound of REVIVAL?

A complete feeling of ambivalent surge me this morning as i woke up at half past nine. Caught in a dilemma,i still decided to fall back to sleep to compensate for my lost of sleep for the past few nights. At least i did not wake up in a fluster like all other past three days. Surely i enjoyed my three days experience with God. Being submerged in full turth teaching how can my cognitive self not be renewed. I surely learn a greater depth into healing. A healing church. In short FAITH is required. In God’s general plan, he wants all to be in gd health however there are some when God does not healed it’s for his glory. Another thing that caught me real deep was that do not steal God’s glory.

There are so much i have been learnign over there. =) i enjoy it!

well. i need to bump off nw.

david