think about thoughts

apparently, i’m wait to help a more crystal understanding of coriolis.
this is how hilarious but very rage building.
because my computer has no sound card so i cannot actually view the whole thing on corliolis effect.
then again, God placed friends in my life for a significant reason.
i’m waiting for lummpy to help me. =)
he has always been a great help to me.
this blog skin and stuff was also done by him. haha.
he’s one wonderful friend, God has given me.

well. an update of God’s moving.
16 is really here in our way!
was talking to one of my sheep just now, it was obvious the presence of God has consumed him that he wants to rise his care group goal!
he has evidently saw God’s moving here.
my the other leader as well. =)
haha. okay i shall go and call lum nw.

anyways. i really wonder why plpe abhor tagging?
at least let me know your presence.
haha.
but you are never obliged to do so.

davidhoe

we do at least see a magazine when we walked around the book store, don’t we?
some of the cover page, have the intricacy of computer skills, while others are dully simple.
as we flipped through the pages, our mouth reciprocate the embellishment in it.
we go agape.
soon, we start to read those articles within in.
some are advices, stories or even a warning to those peril illness.
indeed, it’s a simple book that is filled with the splendid of colours.
the book shows us a greater paranoma of society today.
the magazine never remains the same.
you get a fresh and hot from the oven magazine monthly, don’t you?

do you not realise something?
our life is just like a magazine.
our lives are constantly changing, embellished with laughters and tears, inticate with fine craft manship from above and stories.
many times, we just let life passed us by. don’t you agree?
we rather speculate on other people magazines than ours.
maybe it’s time, to sit down by the bay and read your own story.
the story that was never told to yourself.

davidhoe

feelings are the most complex emotions made.
different ideologies bombarded to oneself can arise to ambivalent state.
when we were younger, the feelings we were taught are simple.
Happy, sad and angry.
Those were the first few feelings that went into my head when i was dead younger.
as time pass me by, i being to learn more about it.
feelings are not as easy as it seems.
but the question is this, can we control it?

anyways. i’m seriously feel very ambivalent now!
i sing praises to your name, oh lord!
on one hand i feel damn ecstatic and also stretch.
firstly, i know God is moving in this group!
i know after yesterday, he’s leading me with divine guidance.
a triumphant smile grew over my face just now, as i thought of what happened today.

firstly,
Joel and his team: They have a wholesome no. of HIGH contacts! the direction you gave me was 7 high contacts and they did it!
Shawn: Made the decision to say, ‘i want to serve God!’. God, you are simply great!
Sathay: Filled with a sense of greater motivation to grab the harvest!
Jun ming: Called sathay that he wants him to be his shpd. He wants to join our church. Sathay told him to think about it and share with him tmr.
Jeremy: he caught whole of a great pool of HIGH contacts!
Jun kai: Gave his donkey best! Though 2 contacts, God smiles over him.
Walter: was terribly sicked, and the CG prayed in class! He was healed instantly at home!

can you tell me it’s not God’s that is moving?
i know it’s his direction. 16 people.
what a marvellous work you are doing, God!
honestly, it cannot be the work of man.
I’m made with tons of limitations.
But God was the one that change their hearts.
i’m proud of my group!

God, i anticipating for more of your work daily!
let us exceed the 16 mark!
please keep watch over us.
Father, i pray none of us will be caught in doing things. But you will refresh our walk with you.
amen!

alright, i have piles of work to be done now.
a mind map and el stuff!
think i shall slp at one!
alright!

davidhoe

weird are those habits of the wild we see.
intense aghast pile over each other when our naked eyes glanced into their lifestyles.
strangely, i realised that humans do have some peculiar habits too.
maybe it’s only me.
i tend to enjoy bleeding and wounds.
This does not imply i have a fever over bleeding profusely.
The first few minutes of pain, when the wound exposed is simply indescribable.
Once they cyrstal clear water touches it, the facial expression of one depicts tremendous hell.
simply excruciating.
Just because to get the trill of instant feeling of open wound, we pay the price of screams and such.
therefore, i still think i have peculiar desire.

anyways, school is going to start in few hours.
a feeling of depression washed over me.
i’m unable to join my guys in catching fishes for his kingdom.
by the time i end school, 4pm, the fishes swim to new york city alrdy!
on the other hand, i feel rest assured.
because of God and also i’ve a great team of MAN that will not give up!
i’m proud of all of them! =)

anyways. northwest had our first ever cl retreat today.
it was not cheap thrill and fun.
it was held at sentosa. =)
250 here we come!

so as i came hme, i asked God this question.
‘eh. God i do not to set a goal by my own human limitations. GIve me your direction. What’s the numerical goal for this group? how do you want me to do it?’
honestly, i’m sick and tired of attaining something by my sheer effort.
i want his guidance.
suddenly, this number 16 hit me.
for no apparent reason.
well. to cut the whole long story short.
God reminded me of this passage.
and pay attention to V16.

14 The LORD turned to him and said, “Go in the strength you have and save Israel out of Midian’s hand. Am I not sending you?”
15 “But Lord , [a] ” Gideon asked, “how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family.”
16 The LORD answered, “I will be with you, and you will strike down all the Midianites together.”

i’m not going to explain.
=) he leads, i follow.

davidhoe.

i feel it burning deep inside of me
i feel your spirit is moving around me
i hear your voice
you are calling me closer
i know that you are hear
you are calling me closer

and i will
love you with all of my heart
jesus
i will love you with all of my soul
jesus
i will love you with all of my mind

those words were what i heard over the ear phones few minutes ago.
and i pray that my heart will always sing that.

well. it was a dreadful day, wasn’t it?
simply because i kept sleeping.
firstly, i woke up at 11 odd.
with a sudden surge of motivation since last night, i desired to study.
i sat at the study table and did work for awhile.
after 20mins, i complied to the bed.
not long after, i was chained to it.
didn’t know i had the ability to be such a pig.
well. haha. nvm

but the two highlights of the day were joel and matthew.
met joel for shpding today.
anyways, he went through a 18 points lesson, okay!
it’s not easy yeah! haha.
but he did it! haha

anyways, i was refeshed with what i taught today.
the question is not how much you understand, but how much have i obeyed God?
so what if we know a whole pile of bible?
so what if we know methods to grow our group but we are not even obedient to christ?
how have i been more obedient to chirst today than yesterday?
if jesus is not lord of your life, he’s not lord at all.
yeah. honestly, i do not give respect to people who knows a lot but their life sucks.
i mean, i cannot even see any inch of christ likeness within them?
so yup. i seek to live an obedient life style.

after meeting joel for 2hrs odd,
i went to town in an attempt to study.
firstly, i fell asleep AGAIN on the TRAIN.
my goodness. i think there a PIG demon within me.
slay it!
haha.
crap.
well. i managed to study in the end at le meridian alone.
not bad.

after which, i met matthew at nine pm in PS.
oh yeah. we went to ben and jerry.
i feel FAT.
haha. =P
well. he said something that made sense to me,
it goes something like that.
‘you are giving too much. you add strenght but they do not. if this continues, you may even backslide one day.’
well. it made some sense to me.
friendship is also abt adding strength upon each other. =)
yeah.

had a quite interesting sms with leon not long ago.
God i want the fruit of spirit to be more evident in my life!
self control and peace!
whee whee.
haha

that’s all for today!
david hoe
MOO MOO.

they strolled down the streets from different ends,
both of their pair of eyes caught hold of each other presence,
instantly, an undescribable magnetic attraction draws them together.
they start to rattle off to each other about their day.
as they wander of to the world of their own, they fail to recognise their obstruction to people strides.

this friendship has a captivating sight which make the passer-bys to question.
simply because, to a right state of mind person, this is absurd.
once they glanced at them, they start critizing about it.
how could this ever happen? It’s simply impossible.

both of them come from completely different worlds.
it’s obvious that one grows up with a sliver spoon while the other is bread.
one need not to be some professor know that precise truth.
it’s distinct from the way they dressed.
one is clean shaved while the other not.
he’s sloppy while their other is neat.
the aroma of both is completely different.
it’s a BIG contrast. simply absurd.

how could this happen?, i questioned.
i mean, from the society that i am brought up in, it has never taught me that.
but one look at their relationship, it blows me away.

i couldn’t help but to approach them.
these question just burst out from my mouth,
‘Do you know that both of your friendship has cause many to question? i mean, How did you guys get together?’

the only answer i got was this.
Jesus.

As i continue to sink deep into thoughts,
this jesus must be some eccentric guy man.
he has the ability to draw people from different worlds together.
not just that, but they can be real to each other.
acceptance is what i see.
i’m dumbfounded.

then i wonder to myself,
is this guy, jesus, in my friendship?
as much as i like to chill out, but IS HE EVEN IN THERE?
if not, this relationship i have in church, is as gd as plain friends out there.
we are clicked together by same interest.
not him.
where are you in my friendship!

it’s time that we all move up in our friendship.
let’s spur each other to become more chirst-like.
if not, we are just a pile of SHIT coming tgt.
what do we really care about?
SELFISH people.
all we care is that the other party understand?
COW HEAD!
if our friend really do matter, we dare to be honest.
honest enough to dare to speak truth.
truth like, ‘heys. we are going far in our friendship tgt, but not far in bringing jesus to the picture!’
think about it, how many times do we encourage each other in our walk with him? and how many times do we dare to be real and frank with each other?
come on, christians, we do not want a superfical friendship, don’t we?
i know i’m not linguistic. but i hope whoever reads this comprehend my message.

JESUS is the centre.
not some emotions!
i agree that in each friendship, we have to be real with emotions BUT there’s more than that.

I allow myself to be hurt by you. =)
do not tell me things that i want to hear, but please tell me things that i abhor!

david hoe

his empirical senses tells him that he’s tired.
yet he tries to keep the eye lids up.
he takes out a piece of paper
and in an attempt to read,
but within seconds,
he succumbed to his tirednees.

soundly he sleeps,
the eyes of others shift to his position,
but those intimidating eyes never seemed to be able to pierce his sleep.
he wanders off into this unknown land,
but he feels perfectly alright.
his strides being to accelerate in this land,
the smile developed and never diminished.
across the green pastures,
he laid down freely and gazed into the sky.
the sun light shone upon his face,
he enjoys the ambience.

to his dismay, a sudden jerk brought him back to reality.
for awhile, he thought to himself, ‘where am i?’.
thoughts begin to cluster back shortly.
he press the bell and alights.

there and then, he faces people once again.
the peace he had in that pasture,
just overwhelm the stress.
smile.

The driving force of Jesus in winning friends is this,
COMPASSION for people. =)
have we lost it?
Jesus had compassion for people.
what about us?
christians equates to
CHIRST FOLLOWER.
how are we following him today?

some might think that i’m mad.
the very reasoning to that statement is because, this is my third post within a day.
gracious, goodness me!
the owner of this blog, delcares the blog is alive.
he meant that he will try to blog more often as he can! =)

Children, are the most amazing and wonderful thing one can see and experience.
They asked questions that are strange to us. Idiotic questions? Irrelevant? Dumb?
Within the mind of thier own, they beg to differ.
i’ve comlpetely lost touch with that simplistic school of thoughts.
But i do fathom such amazing and innocent thoughts of thiers.

This just brings me to pounder deeper on my walk with God.
Sometimes, those funny questions we asked God, is just like the child.
God, why does all these things happen to me? Why are the outcomes not those i asked for? Where were you when i needed you? You said that ya will be with me, but i cannot seem to feel you!
These are the questions that simply runs within our mind. But God, doesn’t think like how we, grown ups think.
he never thinks those questions that comes our from a heart of frustrations are idiotic.
yet, he says, ‘i understand. Child, if only you will put all these aside. Perceive what i am doing then you will comprehend the reason for your situation. It’s for your good that i’m doing all these.’

despite the stroms in my life, i never fail to see his hands. I agree that in those moments of rage, i fail to comprehend. But only when i put all those aside, i being to see what i never saw and comprehend what i never understood. Not only do i see and understand, but he guides me out of it.
Most of all, the love just saturate over me once again.

Father, this is a prayer that i want to make now.
Give me problems that i cannot handle. Give me hurricane. But most of all, please help me to see your hands and guide me through it. Saturate me with your love. I do not want a life that claws but i want a life that is living on the edge with you. This is what i ask of you now. Please, say yes to this prayer. =)
in your name i pray,
amen.

i dare to move up a higher level in my walk with God, do you?

davidhoe

i’m not sure about you, but i love to read this again and again.
even as i chew upon it, i desire to be more like jesus.
this end point goal seems so far away, yet near.
but i know, day by day, i become more like him.
i admit that i’m weak but i know he’s strong.
so God, please make me to be a shpd just like you.

Mark 6:30-44

Jesus Feeds the Five Thousand

He cares for the welfare of the sheep.
30The apostles gathered around Jesus and reported to him all they had done and taught. 31Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat, he said to them, “Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest.”

He has compassion for the sheep.
32So they went away by themselves in a boat to a solitary place. 33But many who saw them leaving recognized them and ran on foot from all the towns and got there ahead of them. 34When Jesus landed and saw a large crowd, he had compassion on them, because they were like sheep without a shepherd.

Teaching the sheep.
So he began teaching them many things.

Not considering helping the sheep as a burden.
35By this time it was late in the day, so his disciples came to him. “This is a remote place,” they said, “and it’s already very late. 36Send the people away so they can go to the surrounding countryside and villages and buy themselves something to eat.”

Not allowing our limitations to hinder us from helping our sheep.
37But he answered, “You give them something to eat.” They said to him, “That would take eight months of a man’s wages! Are we to go and spend that much on bread and give it to them to eat?”

38″How many loaves do you have?” he asked. “Go and see.” When they found out, they said, “Five—and two fish.”

Desiring to look after all the sheep.
39Then Jesus directed them to have all the people sit down in groups on the green grass. 40So they sat down in groups of hundreds and fifties. 41Taking the five loaves and the two fish and looking up to heaven, he gave thanks and broke the loaves. Then he gave them to his disciples to set before the people. He also divided the two fish among them all. 42They all ate and were satisfied, 43and the disciples picked up twelve basketfuls of broken pieces of bread and fish. 44The number of the men who had eaten was five thousand.

david

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly’s erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won’t last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You’d better slow down
Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won’t last.

Ever told your child,
We’ll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,

Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,”Hi”

You’d better slow down.
Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won’t last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift….
Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

david