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when life seems to be at its peak,
it may crumbles and fall into pieces by natural agents.
all these simply alludes to the foundation of the building.
instantly, the boisterous children vanished into thin air.
looking at the building now, it awakes poignant memories of those sparkles of joy.

now, it’s dependent on you will perceived that paragraph.

alright. i will sum up my day with one word, fruitful.
i enjoyed the time spent with sherman, remus and the leadership team.
yesh! i can see revival happening! =)
time to burst out in growth!

well. i do feel extremely burden!
for our new believers!
God i pray that retention will be 100%!
i anticipate to see the rise of new leaders and shpds!

alright. i need to buzz off to do wrk! =!
davidhoe!

what can my mind perceived?
your greatness made me stand in flabbergasted.
the moving of your feet just raise the sound of triumphant in my heart.
what else can i still perceive? tell me.

that was random.
anyways. by now, some may have known that far north and west A has combined to be a new sub d.
HSFNW. HIGH SCHOOL FAR NORTH WEST! =)
this is seriously going to shake the whole land of FNW. =)
the rampant corruption of youths must stop here.
my fire within my heart has ignited to a higer level.
the passion has driven deeper.
the love has gone to the ends of the island.
far north west brothers will be a REVIVAL GENERATION.
after spending time with the FNW brothers today, i must say that i enjoy their presence.
more importantly, i see them as a man after God’s own heart and influence.
sherman is added into my sheep pen. wha. i really look forward to shepherding him man! haha.
i love all my sheep.

anyways. for blog surfers, you might be wondering why ‘REVIVAL GENERATION’ right?
well. i shall break the whole mystery for you.
as i was heading for home on the bus, i asked God this, ‘God, can you tell me what are you going to do in this group? your direction too?’.
As i made this prayer, the song ‘God is moving’ ran through my head.
suddenly, the song that played in my ipod on shuffle mode, was playing God is moving!
wha! haha. so divine right?
so as i was hearing to the lyrics in the song, bang! the phrase, ‘can you hear the sound of revival?’ caught my attention. =)
the whole idea of a revival generation for brothers must happened.
we will see a strong unit and sub d of brothers in far north west by end of this year.

the picture of an army with the leader at the front of the battle line came into my mind.
the leader said, ‘Charge! we are moving forward!’ ring in my mind.
yesh. this will be likewise, we are going to conquer far north west with the same spirit.
we are charging forward.
revival generation.

davidhoe

Ex DMM. where am i? haha.

Just so much fun. =) 

The ex marist grp! =) my ex sheep! haha. Lesile, si han, kar shun and de zheng.

Marist with yu qian. =)

My two strong female leaders and ex sheep.

that’s yu qian! happy bday! and what’s aloy doing there?

so we were singing? lalalala

we started with all these. =)

more pics?

okay. i look dumb!

eh. where was i looking? nvm. haha. yu qian and me.

do we look like ghost? helena and me.

happy eating. aloysius wasted his food! argh.

life is comparable to a long haul race.
spiritual life is like a marathon.
sprinting may bring ya far at the start of the race, but it’s questionable if one may last.

i am stupefied to realise how many are still in this race.
the gathering we had today brings back nostalgic memories.
we talked about those days when we served God together, the care groups we had, shepherdings we recieved, the veue and stuff.

Some of us move on to the next life station while others settled for a new life, and i’m still here.
when i saw their faces today, i must say that many have changed.
their dressing, speech, gestures and stuffs.
but deep in the recesses of my heart, i still love and care for them.
across the table sat 12 of us.
of which 9 were once my sheep. Out of this 9 sheep, 3 has left the lord but i know they still have a yearning to come back to him. My covenant with all my sheep has been always this, a shepherd for life.

I remember this unit came out from north A. Our unit leader was nicloe. We sat in a circle formation in church office in year 2001, and our unit leader announced the birth of north c. This unit comprises of only guys from marist, gyss, ftpss and beatty.
I remember that our first few weeks foucs was to maintain the 15 mark in order to be called a unit.
we even met before service at orchard point, bk to talk about our 15.
As time went by, the unit grew in quality and numbers.
At then i was taking care of the toa payoh schools at then, there came my first two female sheep. yu qian and helena.
I can vividly remember the care group we had at some park? yeah. we made deliberate effort to have a theme and invite cards for cg.(THE CODE) We will sit around starhub foodcourt every saturday to plan the following cg. wha. =) It’s indeed amazing.
Not long after, i was asked to lead the far north group.
At then, toa payoh was called central north with marist group as well.
In that particular far north group, it started with kar shun, lesile, wei song and whosoever.
Central north was aloysius, si han, yu qian, helena and wen cai.
oh yeah. i led marist along the way too. =)
and the journey went on. =)
after three months have passed, it was announced that the sisters group to be transferred to north A.
Our hearts sunk further when we heard that our unit leader left church.
It was at this period of time, priscilla took our whole unit.
She trained me under her gudiance and help me to lead the whole unit.
At then we were about 30 odd 40.
I also remember it was at that period that leslie, kar shun and de zhen transferred to poly group.
and so much more.
north c has undergo at least 7 stages.
in fact, the history of north C has many parts.
and i’m very proud to have been through all of it untill i came to west.

The current north c now is a new book written by ruth.

but all in all, i must say, i enjoyed today’s gathering.
though some of us have left, but deep within my heart, i truly care.
for all my ex and current sheep, i love you guys!

i will keep these memories in my heart.

i will upload some pictures too. =)

davidhoe

i wonder who will still be in this race 5 years later?
the people that matters to me? will they?
and will i?
i just simply wonder.
j/d= like what ya said.

Religon is a burden we carry with us all our lives.
it can be a set of beliefs, rules and such.
a relationship sustain you for life and the desire for intimacy is met.

we are human beings and not doings.

sometimes, i wished that i had not lost certain relationships.
sigh.
God will make a way. =)

davidhoe

i’m back to blogging again.
anyways, i have a deep thought on leadership as i was heading home.

Psalm 72
A psalm of Solomon.
1 Give justice to the king, O God, and righteousness to the king’s son.
2 Help him judge your people in the right way; let the poor always be treated fairly.
3 May the mountains yield prosperity for all, and may the hills be fruitful, because the king does what is right.
4 Help him to defend the poor, to rescue the children of the needy, and to crush their oppressors.

The first question that starts me thinking was this,
‘what is leadership all about?’
Many thoughts start to accumulate within my mind.
One word shows the simplicity and sublimity of it, Influence.

great! so what’s this influence all about?
why did God instill this influence in our leadership?
Then i looked at psa78 frm the NLT version.
Solomon had great influence and power, at then.
but The irony is this, why did he still asked God for influence?
The answer came in verse 4.
The purpose of influence is to speak up for those who do have that influence.
It’s not about leading trillions of people alone, but to help others to speak out.

Then i thought of leading people.
so many times we are concern and worry about growth in our groups.
but there’s one truth that i hold onto.

our body is made of many complex system.
when they body is healthy it automatically grows.
so why worry about growth of the group?
i think the more important worry we ought to have is this,
am i healthy? is my group healthy?
is it fed with the substantial amount of word and living out christ.
Growth needs not to be forced out when we are healthy.

alright. i need to buzz off now.
davidhoe

i thought of this ‘poem?’ on the bus just nw.
it’s about a friend of mine.

Life is just like strolling down on a beach,
filled with numerous sea shells.
innocent and harmless looking shells but well embellished with its shades.

then i bend my knees and gazed deeply into the white sand,
right before my very pair of eyes was a sea shell.
that gazed on it, lifted the sense of euphoria inside of me.

it has no distinct features that stands out from all the rest
but it is a shell i can call it my friend.
the simplicity of your presence is a bliss in my life.

the end.

i must make a disclaimer.
i have never taken LIT before
thus if this poem?? sucks, that’s too bad.
it’s for my friend. hehe.
bruce.

david hoe

the magnitude of our emotions is dependent on circumstances.
we strolled down the streets and our bird eye view tells us some people feelings.
the anxiety look on their faces, relief and much more expression.
none of us are made without emotions, aren’t we?
certainly.

however, some people never truly express it out.
we get agitated at times when people just bottled issues within them.
maybe sometimes we should consider this,
‘Have i allow this person to be real with me?’.

another simple question i would like to post,
‘how often do we pour out our emotions to God?’
To me, God doesn’t think of my as ‘UNSPIRITUAL’!
i dare to be naked and transparent infront of God.
when i come before his throne, i may say hurtful words to him.
but all in all, i know he wants to listen.
i’m just david hoe in his eyes. not some holy hoe.
Jesus lives in me and he does life with me.
he’s not some God in the church where i try to impress him.
i’m just who i am in him.

davidhoe

as the rampant stroms start to surge through my heart,
it struck me to know that you still care.

simply put, i was dumbfounded by your deed.
it’s the simplicity of that action that brings warmth to my heart.
‘david, what can i pray for you?’

it came at a divine timing.

God, currently i am in a state of despondent.
i hope that sometimes, they will be able to read my heart.
the doing out of love.
i abhor doing certain things at times,
why bother to make my life closer to death by doing so?
the only answer i can truthfully tell myself if this,
all because of love. i see the need to take care of them as a life.

well. God i just hope they will comprehend.
alright. i’m leaving all those sadness to you now.
charging up by your grace.
and moving on.

as much as these problems eat up my strenght,
i feel weak and helpess.
but it’s in all these,
i find my closeness to you.
this is all i want.

that close.

david

finally, i’m able to break the chain of procrastination for the past few days about making a post!
the week was filled with fruitful events, and it has spurred me to extend my sleeping time by an hour.
apparently, the clock depcits 12.22am. but the bundles of energy still remain unbroken!

i will not deny the visible fact that these few days have been relatively hectic.
hectic in a sense that it doesn’t refer to humdrum living.
as much as it draws my physical, spiritual and emotional strength from me, i have managed to smile through it all.
something that i’m rather impressed with myself during this week.
a child like prayer. =)
due to all these ministry, workloads, demands and stuff it has taught me to seek God in a child like manner.
i explained to the all knowing God about the complexities of emotions that runs within me.
irony.
honestly, i felt a great sense of relief by telling God slowly about the happenings in my life. =)
give me this child like heart and mind. =)
and a child like obedience.
the truth is sometimes as we aged, we tend to lose this child likeness towards God.
we allow the inquistive nature to overtake us. and faith is thereby relied on facts.
not that facts are obnoxious, rather we enter to the point of questioning with a heart filled with skeptics.

i met up with eelee yesterday and i told her this, ‘I will not want to step down in leading even during my o level period. i still insist on meeting up all my sheep weekly and leading my group! I want to do this to show God’s power in my life. seriously, why do i need to wait for last mintue then study and at the end neglecting my people. i rather start consistent work now. i choose to live a life that God is in the centre!’. There is nothing really flamboyant about that few statements but the challenge is to get 6 points. It’s seems completely impossible. Initially, my goal was not to get 6 points but just 15 and below. After considering what God has spoken to me, i will take up this challenge. To manage my ministry, family, social friends and yet excelling in my studies without compromising any bit at all. another irony, i see the possibility in the impossibility. see, i’m personally convicted of this, if this jesus thing is real, then i’m dead serious in giving my all. After all, i do not seek to waste my effort in building on something is fake. If this jesus guy is real and the bible is infallible, then i submit to you that i’m not heading for a life that speaks mediocre.

on top of that, i’m looking forward to what is coming ahead of in my minstry few months down the road. i’m anticipating new cls to rise and i want to lead a new aspect of my ministry. =) yesh! intetresting huh. yeah.

been thinking of friendship recently. friendship is not as easy as it seems to me. the complexities to me has transcended all my expectations. =/ alright, i was just talking to someone today abt friendship. sometimes, we know that by saying something to their respective person who that could help them, will turn out to be a detrimental effect to the realtionship between you and the party. i realised that as well. sometimes, people claimed it as busybodies. but the never really see the reason for doing so. so much so, that they claim that you have hurt them and nothing can plaster the relationship back. what about me? honestly, i have friends that stabbed me from the front before through telling the respective person who is able to help me and i admit that i was burning with smoke at then. But when i woke up to my senses, i only learn that he meant care. and i seek to restore the relationship. and yeah we plastered it well. Isn’t that simply true about a real friend?
I allow you to know who i really am inside and give you the key to my heart also allowing you to hurt me.
jonathan and david. i’m still finding for my jonathan. the jonathan i once thought i had, has already left.
God, is it so tough to find my jonathan? I pray my jonathan will come soon as i serve you.

alright. these are all my thoughts, feelings and convictions for the week.

anyways. ting wants me to put this, TINGTING IS THE BEST.

oh yeah! we are on our way to 16! his direction, my steps.

davidhoe