think about thoughts

delectable eyes but putrid dressing.
across the room, reverberates echoes of smooth jazz, sweeping across everyone ears and melt their hearts.
i stared into the blank air, and thoughts came converging into a point.
A loud cracking sound, stomped across the room and the thoughts vanished into thin air.
I was devasated and determined to find out what happened.
To my dismay, it was the boy who pushed the flask down.
The tears on his face, rolled down like an endless streams.

alright, that was seriously random.
okay! God, it’s been long since i last made a post.
whee. alright, this shall be short and snappy.
i’m glad that ya are speaking to me daily.
Thanks! hehe.
alright, tmr is my chem paper.
please give me skillful hands!
i love you!
i thank God for those great friends you have given me.
People like, bryan, claire, rk, step, melvin and yk.
still go few more. but whahaah.
LAZY.

okay. time for bed!
davidhoe

in this race, there are some questions in my heart that were left hanging.
but according to your timing, ya answered.
Sometimes, i questioned you, ‘why do i have to endure this thorn in the flesh?’
you remained silent.
Today, ya reminded me of the reason.
Everything that you have gone through, was meant to help others out of it.
And God, thank you.
Though i abhor the those thorns in my flesh, but i comprehend that ya have the reasons.
Thank you.

God, my eye lids are puffy and heavy.
But i want to ask of your presence strongly in my life.
do not leave me.
50 people by end of this year, it shall be done.
you have given me a great team of leaders.
i love them, and you.

God, one prayer i have to make.
Reality gobsmacked straight onto my face, that i’m a lot slower than my classmates in revision for o’s.
Some might say that it’s too late, but i shall rely on you.
One week, eight subjects.
i do not know how, but you know.
thanks!
i will not compromise on my walk with you, and my the ministry ya have given to me.

alright, i want to shut off to the unknown world. bye.
davidhoe

hello God! :0
How’s your day? I guess, it must be busy for you, but there is always a smile that will never fade from your face.
Your coherence is displayed through the majestic nature- the awesome tree, waving its branches by the motion of the wind, the leaves rustling and cracking, the evergreen appearance and the butteress root, just shows the splendid of your creation. One tree, speaks so much about the creator. I love you.
Once again, i had a great day which were filled with euphoric memories. We had our Far north west family day at marina bay. Thank God for those who led games. It was crystal clear that Alvin and ZK, enjoyed leading games. Then we head for our steamboat, and i’m stupefied by the fact that i can cooked scrumptious bbq food. Maybe, that a new spiritual gift? lol. I’m glad that all the guys enjoyed themselves. The atmosphere of fun was so thick, that nothing could pierced through.
However, the highlight of the day was at VIVO city. Sherman, Joel, Sathya and I took a long strolled with large strides around VIVO city before we ended up at starbucks. I was enjoying my cup of mint tea, while sherman got some cupp? yeah. Alvin and Eugene came alone, but they sat at another table. This was because, we were having shepherding. I’m reminded of a fact, a vision is birth from a concern. 50 is not a joke, but it will come to pass. My team and i believe it. God, please let it come to past! After shepherding, we went to the third level of VIVO city, and it was time to get a little wet. We receded from the concrete dry land and got oursleves wet in some pool. They were not prepared for this. We started kicking water at each other, splashing water on each other, pushing each other in the water- we successfully thrown alvin down the pool and did push ups. Surely, age was never a factor in the pool, all of us went back to our childhood days. I guess, we caught many attention too. But we had fun, most of all, memories were created. Create memories in meetings. So, all of us were drenched when we head for home.
Alright, once again, reality sets in. My o level paper will begin tomorrow, thursday. And i have been playing real hard these few days. Maybe, my brain has been wired wrongly. lol. But God, eh. please help me. thursday paper, here i come! It’s physic practical! Gosh. Please help me. Thank you, Jesus.
My saviour, my closest friend.
I love you, i need you.
davidhoe

hello God,
wha. suddenly, reality has fallen upon me. i didn’t realize that o levels are that near, untill today. Still, i know you can be trusted. yeah. o level is not my main concern. hehe. anyways, one think i asked of you is this, speak to me. Do not leave me. Thanks! Even at times i may be caught in the routine of doing things, please remind me, that i’m yours. God, since i have only few days to o’s, i asked of you to give me potent wisdom. hehe. thanks man!
alright, so what’s happened for today. Firstly, i guess i woke up on the wrong side of my bed, and caught a slight fever. well, my immune system was not as strong as i thought it was.
i went to sentosa today, to celebrate bryan’s bday then vivo city. Frankly speaking, we played, though we had wanted to study in sentosa. we ended touring sentosa by foot, buses and trams. Bryan, rk and i went cycling around sentosa, in an attempt to search for an atm machine for me. Thanks! ahya! to cut the whole long story short, it was a fun day. i loved the part where we were at vivo city! yeaps! hehe. i drank at least 8 cups of warm water for the past 5 hours and have visted the washroom for at least 7 times! well, thanks to all these drinking and visting, the fever has subsided. God is my healer!
BRYAN, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
something that hitted me just nw,
it’s not about the numbers but the conviction.
whee. i shall attempt to wake up at 8am tmr, and pack my rm, do qt, plan lesson, study history and go for care group! whee. afterwhich, i will be shpding my mighty warriors.
God, i need you.
good nights!
davidhoe.

bryan, thank you for the chocolate

your love spreads across the skies,
it rays pierced t through the blankets of cloud,
the droplets splatters over my body,
a sense of delight rushes through my bones,
far more, it paints a smile.

life has it crest and troughs,
but i find peace in the dwelling place.
how about you?

i have a great team of leaders, who are serving the lord with me
well, all of us are big time sinners.
and we sinned everyday. isn’t it obvious?
this is why i love this team, we are all sinners.
No sin is too big or small.
we stepped on each other foot, and flare up at times.
our hobby? sinning. (intention or unintention)
but we love to visit the dwelling place.
in this place, we find forgiveness, acceptance and love.
this dwelling place belongs to Jesus.
he smiles over us. though at many times we are fallible.
this is an authentic team.
we grow, struggle, strive and so much more together.
this wonderful team is responsible
all of them take care of their growing care groups, faithfully.
despite my exams, they are self motivated by the vision of God
they take full ownership of their goals.
Sathay: 15
Joel: 16
Sherman: 18
and with me, it’s 50! by end of this year!
Gosh, i am seriously in loved with this team.
so team, let’s go for the 50 by end of this year!

alright, i have did some changes to my blog.
i have linked some people and did some changes.
okay! and the best deal is this, i still have not touch any other subject except physics.
but i’m still blogging! hehe.

anyways, i’m going to spend my tmr with BRYAN!
i am looking forward to meet him, because i know i will be encouraged.
by having a brother who desires to stengthen his walk with God, and coping with his ministry during this o level period, simply encouraged me.
and i vow to God that i will not touch phy tmr.
i hope. haha. lol.

alright, i’m heading for bed nw.
give me the strength to go through my tmr.
i love you, jesus.

davidhoe

no wonder, they call you saviour.
no wonder, they said you are the peace.
no wonder, they claimed that you are their everything.

The surging and rushing waves, rose above the buildings and crashed upon me.
Rampant thoughts, horrendous ideas, nostalgia memories and swirling pictures loved to lump as one.
As they shoot up from the ground, it hydrolysis, and make me stonger.
Nevertheless, it’s a decision.
We choose on how we should repsond to the situation.
Not let the situation decides on how we should react.

alright, that was random.
so i shall venture on scaling down my day, into a few paragarphs.
God!
I seriously do hate waking up in a fluster, don’t you?
Thanks for settling down my heart while i was on the bus.
Reading your word and immensing myself in worship, just makes my mouth ajar in your presence.
It’s like honey/chocolate lavished upon me, when i feel so lethargic it ravishes my soul.
Thank you.
Once again, i just want to take time out to count some of my blessings.
Thank you for speaking to me, while i was in a fluster.
Thank you for helping me to reach kap by the desired time.
Thank you for giving me friends like step, who willingly came down to teach me sbq.
Thank you for helping me to reach bk to meet bryan by 6pm
Thank you for showing yourself faithful to bryan, which encourages me.
Thank you for giving me a team of leaders that love you and take your goal seriously.
Thank you for reminding me that, we should not let you pass by.
Thank you for everything.
Lastly, i want to thank you for helping me to complete 7 physics papers in 3 days! :\ though i haven’t done much for the rest of the subjects. God, sometimes, it’s really petrifying to see so many people having done so much for their revision. But i have not. :\ All i did was physics.
But still, i want to thank you for giving me the strength to finish 4 papers today. Wha. God, i still have SS, HIST, PURE GEO, A MATH AND E MATH UNTOUCHED! praise the lord man! Better still, CHINESE IS NOT TOUCHED COMPLETELY! I cannot recall when was the last time i flipped open my textbook. but it’s okay. Alright, God i pray that at least help me to finish 2 chapts each for SS, PG AND HISTORY. anyways, i’m going to take some risk, like i always do.
i shall only study 3 chapts for ss and hist each, and 4 chapts for pure geo(5 if i have the time).

ss: Seperation and Meger, Good governace and sustaining development.
hist: TOV( Germany), China (early years) and Russia. I hate russia. Do you believe that i NEVER ATTEND ANY CLASS ON RUSSIA AND CHINA IN MY WHOLE LIFE?! that’s true. Because i joined the class 6 months after they begun. who will be kind? haha.
Geo: Weathering and rivers, Natural veg, coast and population. Study weather if time permits.

hmm. i have a thought that is dashing around my head. :\
how shall i put it.
God, i’m not really sure..
is it or maybe an imgination?
argh. i know, that ya comprehend my heart.
So i asked of you this, show me if this is what ya promised.
please.
honestly speaking, sometimes, fear will hold me back.
when those words rattled out of the mouth, it blew me back.
maybe. a imagination.
why does the mouth have to remind me of donkey.
damn nostalgic lah.
nevermind. i will explore it for myself.
jonathan?

alright! 50 people by end of this year!
God, i better head for some rest!
davidhoe

Gosh, God. haha. how have ya been?
hope you are doing fine, and still smiling over me. Though, the truth is, i think i paint a frown at most times than a smile. :/ but still, you accept me. That’s good enough.
God, when i was young, i used to think that times passes EXTREMELY slowly. But as i venture out in life, i realized that time waits for no man. It spins like a blink of an eye. One moment it’s here and the next moment, it’s gone. How i wished i could go back to my childhood days. eh. maybe not. but maybe yesh. Everyone has different childhood, and so do i. i’m speechless.
Thank you for teaching me lessons daily
the concept of rock, came splashing onto my face rentlessly and made my mouth slightly ajar.
and today, you taught me on treasuring the minute friendships that are in my life.
As i looked at my life, i see many sets of footprints that are imprinted on my heart.
Some of this footprints looked diminished, while some are deeply impressed.
help me to treasure all those around me.
thank you jesus.
davidhoe
anyways, thank you for giving me my dad.
Though i really hate those naggings, but i love him,
it’s really hard to tell him, but yeah. haha.
if he ever knows how to read english. haha.
thank you.

droplets of perspirations developed on my neck, when i was searching frantically for a teaching few minutes ago.
thank God, it was found. I had to heft those piles of papers- overstacking on each other, inorder to grab hold of the percious piece of paper.
alright, time with God now.
anyways, gosh. Jesus, for the past two days, i have been caught up in the heap of workload, tiredness and bed.
how shall i describe my past two days to you? taxing, maybe. alright, firstly, i would like to thank you for letting all my sheep matured. I must say that i’m extremely impressed by their actions. Knowing that i have the dreaded examination in few weeks down the road, they offered to meet me at any location that will be near me.alright, God i have quite a number of thoughts this wk. And through these thoughts, ya have taught me lessons that are of greater value than diamonds.
the truth about ministry is this, most of us have sore feelings towards problems but frankly speaking, we enjoy ministry. Most of the times, taking care of the group brings both joy and pain. More than that, everyone loves the ministry they are in. To see life transformation, is the greatest joy that delight in our hearts.

Conviction is when interesection of what we know and what we believe. What are some convictions we anchor upon in this walk with you? i’ve been re defining my convictions on bgr this wk. If i were to sum it up, it will be this- open up myself to more choices. Make more friends. I shall not elaborate on it.

In every race, there is a lesson learnt. Once we give up, the lesson will not be completed. Keep hanging on.

Maturity is about the decisions we make. At times, our sinful nature hold us back from serving, but we have to choose to battle it out. What’s our decision? see, it lies with thie point called convictions. What are anchoring our life upon? theortically speaking, his word. But we need to have certain convictions. Not just follow blindly.
There is a distinct difference between a salesman that believes that his product is the best and one that does not. Likewise, for a leader. Are we convicted of what we are doing?

convictions.

Jesus, thank you.

through these two days, i have also managed to catch up with few friends too. Though short, but i enjoyed the time spent. David ong, Joeseph lum, Step, Claire, wei song, jerld, jia yi, ting, joyce and Zinc. yups. God thank you for placing people around my life, especially in this season.

Thank you for giving me a friend and shepherd that showed care.
Dennies loh, in an attempt to be kind and help me with my studies, i rejected him. Because i saw no significance by showing him my papers. But i appreciate his act of kindness. Shepherd, thanks. Thoug at times, i barely understand, but well.
Byran, thanks for praying for me, and even asked if there’s anything you can help. I appreciate it too.

God, i better head for bed now. Because, i’m meeting dennies tomorrow at 9.30am. oh yea, looking forward to meet melvin for dinner
once again, thank you Jesus. Renew my inner man and refresh me.
i love you,
david hoe. <3

as the tranquil music reverberates in my mind, i adher to my committment of making a post.
God,
the smooth music echoes in my ears, the music that diffused from the flute makes me agape, still, you never fail to amaze me. music, such a simple tool, but powerful. It has the ability to be a catalyst and rage one emotions or brings tranquility in the hearts. Music is ministering too, it helps one express his love for you through songs. In every heart of ours, there is a song. A song that only you can delight in. Lyrics that ya adore. God, i was reminded of this pharse, ‘Extra mile for our people,’ I was talking to my team just now over the phone, about the principle of making a care group more like a family is love. Love is such a simple word but has board meanings. But just one glance at Jesus, depicts love. Love at its highest cost. Where he allows us to stab him from the from. Love. Speak of love for people, it has to derive from the love of God. It’s our personal responsibility to find the best postion where we can seek for renewal daily. God, i’m so refreshed by the simple truth once again. God, i studied like madness today, but i thank you for being with me. Thank you for speaking to me in the bus. Appreciate it a lot. I thank you for bryan once again. sometimes God, it’s not really about how much on does, but just simple concern that melts my heart. thank you for showing to me your love through people around me. Through my current dmm, ex dmm and some friends i treasured. heys God, thanks for knowing that i need more of your word, that i have one new sermon in my ipod. Thanks you, for sending bryan who took the initiative to send it to me. Thank you for a wonderful team of leaders that contributed to the idea of extra mile. Joel, Sathay and Sherman. Thank you. Let me have a heart of gratefulness. God i pray for all those people who are undergoing the tramatic period in their lives now, exams, that ya see them through this period and let your gracious and delectabe hands guide them. alright, that’s all for today. time to listem sermon. oh mine. God forgive me for all those sins that i’ve done that are sore to your eyes. thanks!

davidhoe.
i love you!