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PMS blog again. :/

caught hitman with IG friends today.
it was those random show that we decided to watch.
however, i find it nice.

killing spree. lol.

hoe

i just realized that my blog will have PMS syndrome at times.
today he just PMS again. hence i am not able to choose my enchanted font.

alright, i just came home from a pleasant run.
Gosh, it has been a long while since i finished running with a smile on my face.
Most of the time, i am either satisfied or not. However, today’s run deviate from the norm.

If you ever read my previous post, it would be familiar to you that i actually ran last week. Frankly speaking, that was one of the worse run i ever had in my life. Defeated would be the penultimate word to describe it. So can you guess what’s the elite word? Brain dead.

Back to today’s run. Actually, it was another impromptu run again. Adrenaline must have gotten hold of me recently. Oh well, that’s not the point. Originally i planned to feet my foot into that Adistar tomorrow morning. However, as mentioned adrenaline just stripped me. sounds wrong! continue…

bubbles of anticipation rustle within me as i approached home, but torrents of memories of the past run swept my begin. So how? I was still determine to run. But at the back of my mind, i was apprehensive on how the run might turn out today. As i tunneled my way down my block, i found a suitable place to do some stretching. Then within the few split seconds, i dashed off. Those first few strikes came with a price, which was the possibility of feeling defeated again.

However, i decided to run with my mind today. Not with my previous experience.

As my strides took me through the usual 5km route, i had to play the mental game. I have to keep pushing my way through despite those daunting thoughts. In short, i managed to regain my spirit of running with speed once again.

Distance is not an issue, but mental distance is a great barrier.

so how does this affect my learning today?

faith is believing when you have yet seen it. do you not agree that faith has to do with a great amount of mental strength and complete trust in God and his word? Many of the times, we are daunted by our past experience of our inadequacies hence not able to charge forward.

In this race with God, it starts with your mind first. Heart comes in as well, but i think it will be at a later stage. Though at times, heart might come first, but seldom. Many times, we just got to use our mental to obey God, and as we do so our hearts will follow. I do not think that in those period of obedience, it is the heart that leads us to respond, but most of the time, our mind. Where we make a decision to obey and follow, and as we do so, there and then it flows into our heart.

Mind. What do you feed it with?

hoe

seeking God and spending time with God is my favorite sport. hehe.
God, hectic week ahead but i need your strength. Mental strength to plan and lead. whee whee.

i am lazy to check for errors.

Throw in the towel if you want, but i am not going to throw mine.

there are certain thoughts that are running through my naked brain.

i am astounded by God’s grace in the ministry.
50 is a big leap of faith, but i am going to trust God for that.
Forgive us and open up the gates and pour in the harvest.

the next thing is, i love my GP tuition. RANDOM.
Firstly, the teacher voice simply mesmerizes me. in a good way.
Her depth and width of knowledge can kick any butt off to mars.
That proves i cannot be a GP teacher.

lastly,
I CANNOT CONCENTRATE ON STUDYING FOR PHYSICS.
I HATE PHYSICS TO THE MAX CAN.
help, SOS. haha. 911!!!!
i just cannot concentrate on reading physics.

okay, this means.
time to watch the tv and play pokemon.

hoe

i agree with you that friendship takes time to build, but i must let you know that it takes a decision to begin.

for some reasons, the tool bar vanished as the page appears.
strange as it seems, but i don’t give much thought about it.

alright, hold your horses. Just before you rattle those words that i have neglected my beloved blog.

covenanted friendship:

covenanted friendship help each other become the best that we are created to be in christ
covenanted friendship is built upon God’s truth
covenanted friends are willing to take risk for one another
covenanted friends keep promises

learning this lesson really reminds me of some friendship.
people like, matthew, brandon, david ong, bruce, jarvin, melvin, yk, dk and bryan.
some still are in tact, while others might have broken.
but God, ya decide.

hoe

HELP! MY DELETERIOUS BRAIN IS SPINNING AND DRIVING ME TO INSANITY!
i can literally feel the vessels pumping in and out at the side of my head.
Help, i can die any moment now!

10 down, 40 more to go.
I doubt my ability.

help

hoe

i was goggling some pictures regarding the beauty of life, and i thought those words above were remarkable descriptions of life. Excitement and significant.

Myopic as the problem seems, but disastrous are the consequences.
Sometimes our strengths can be our weakness as well. Hence, we are not infallible. So is there such a thing as perfect strength? For example, a person who exemplify focus is a strength to other and himself, but at times being extremely focus leads one to forsake the beauty of life.

This was a lesson that i learn from my short 6+ km run. Being a guy, the adventurous side of me spill out during the run and thus i decided to take a new route. This route will end up at some fitness park and i will take a stroll home. While coming home, there were few things that caught my attention. Firstly, i was aggravated when i saw the sight of a guy (i shall not mention race) abusing his dog. He was like taking a cane and giving it free spanking. I took a step closer and observe that pitiful dog and to my horror there were scars on his body. Gosh! Were this people lost in a state of euphoria after a great celebration? Sanity, where have you been?

Disgusted and feeling sorry for the dog, i left for home. Then as i walked pass a block, i saw an old man laying soundly asleep on the bench. I wonder if he was to depart from this society, will anyone ever give a fringe thought of him?

Pasting through those blocks and approaching the letterbox, i heard cracking sounds. Curiosity sparked within me, then i took a peek to what was happening. I saw two sliver aged man sitting beside the dustbin and searching for items which could be sold and give them a penny to survive. Will anyone even care about them?

Finally i was under my block, and there was mid 20’s man in front of me. I guess he was either talking to his girlfriend, boyfriend or friend. He was remonstrating about the fact that, ‘this is a gender biased society’. He kept reverberating those words like three times, before he vanished from my sight.

When i approached the lift, then i saw something liverpool vs besiktas 8-0. Gosh, that was total owning can. Then i remember what my ODAC teacher said this morning, it’s not about forcing yourself to memorize. But do it for fun sake. Then learning would not be a torture after all. Which is apparently quite true. See, i can remember so many things!

so what’s the point of this whole post?
If i didn’t take a stroll along my neighborhood and OBSERVE there will be quite a number of things i will have miss out. That’s true for life as well, at times take a break and enjoy what is happening around you. Instead of always trying to be part of the happening. When you take a stop and look at God’s beautiful creation, then you will be able to be in awe of him. Take a break, have an kit kat.
Since you only get to live life once, take a stop at times. Have a short rest.

That same principle applies for our spiritual life. You need a break, a renewed encounter with him daily.

and i don’t know what’s wrong with the world today. As of now, three person asked me to go for a run, after i have came home.

we had a fun fear factor care group today! This care group really showed me a lot of what are north C people made of. Quality. Family

hoe

a snappy post before i surrender to the bed monster.
I cannot believe that in a few more hours, my dear eyes have to flutter with great might and strength. For a very simple reason, a morning 10km run in school! beloved 30 rounds, mentally draining and oh well. RUNNING IS FUN! but i hate the thought of endless chase. no link.

Don’t you think that little boy is relatively cute? Maybe cute was not the best word to describe him. Carefree? Or simply he has a life that i guess most kids were to crave for. A happy family and well, great friends.

a harsh side of my society dashed through my strong heart today. Kids who are purposeless, broken families, love pain, attracting tons of attention and more importantly finding friends who they can rely on.

I once thought to myself that some of my people were comparable to devil, as i was like in the past. However, when i saw those kids today, gosh, it’s time to take back those words. Still, i had fun with them though they only rattle lies out of their mouth. I made a comment to one of the kids, ‘ out of the ten things ya said, i think only one is true’. And i have my rational for this. Which i am too lazy to explain.

More importantly, i must said that it was a success. Simply because when i left, the no longer ignored me but called me BOSS. That’s not the point. Hearing words like thank you from their mouth is extremely different. I know that i will be generalizing but i still think it is true. When you hang out with kids that come from affluent families, words such as thank you are common. So one will never know if such words overflow from a sincere heart. But when it comes out from these kids, it must have surely be what they really want to tell you.

Though it was just a short span of few hours, i must say that it was a fuel to my passion that God gave. A passion for the lost. I will love to work with these kids again, though i left with some bruises. Well, that’s the price you have to pay when you want to know them.

Something i said that left a deep impression to me. I was handling this delinquent kid and these few words rolled out of my mouth.
‘I don’t care what other leaders do, but because you are in my group i am responsible for you and i care for you. I am not doing this to gain whatever hours, but because ya matter to this group and me.’

God, i pray that they will come to know you soon. One day. very soon.

alright, time to surrender to bed. Though i feel like playing pokemon!

lol

nights world.

hoe