Another train post (:
My back lies on the green pillar on the ICE train while my butt sits firmly on the ground. A sense of dissatisfaction and irritation fuels within because our seats were taken over by others. Theoretically they aren’t wrong to take my seats cause originally it didn’t belong to us. We are on a train that doesn’t belong to us because our train broke down. I guess what really frustrate me the most is the fact of a heavy luggage that I’ve to drag and maneuver around. Alright, I know I sound pissed and not exactly sweet in spirit. Come to think of it, I want to thank God for my traveling partner, David cause he is really patient with me. I get quite demanding at times and this isn’t of any good but he takes those bullets from me with an invisible shield. Alright, God please give me peace . Thank You. I would still insist on compensation that they have to give us for all the unpleasant stuff they have put me through.
Alright, thinking back I really enjoyed my 6 days with hope Germany. I’ve met many people and learnt much from their faith and life. First it was Leipzig where I met Marcus wife and there was the point where I felt embrace by all of them. Talking to them was like a bliss because they were really friendly. I got to know about the structure of the Church program and all. I was introduce to the idea of mentoring and house church. Throughout the entire trip, Julie was an awesome host where she brought us around. From spending time with them, it made me see the value of reaching out as a lifestyle and always going themselves and find new hobbies to reach out. If you were to ask me whom did I enjoy sharing life and build relationship with in Leipzig I would say that Lucas, Stefan and Uli. I had interesting conversation with them individually. It blew and encourage me when I talk with Lucas because I came to reckon his child like faith and dreams of doing so much more for God. Having spoke with Uli made me understood his sincerity in God and desire to surrender Lordship to God. I still can’t exactly comprehend the fact that many take months or even years to come and know your love. Help me to do it. Leipzig ended off when we met Tobias and he showed me lies in what I’ve been studying. He places the bible with how an economy. I was pleasantly surprised he gave me a sliver of his that i would think have cost a lot. His last words to me was to be a businessman that would shape the world for God. Oh yes, I didn’t mention that I have gotten quite a lot of German Christian songs from a guy I chat with in the place I live. It was awesome.
Next up would be Berlin. Gosh, I have never felt that sense of passion for such a long time when I spent time with Marcus and his wife in separate occasion. They are surely dreamers for God. But honestly, I guess Berlin was where I had to really step out of my comfort zone. I would say that they are the classical Germans whom i came to realize at a later time. Germans aren’t very positive and quite skeptical about others to a large extent. I remember feeling a sense of out of place on the first hour with the group. I felt like a total stranger and had difficultly adapting initially. When I was talking to Marcus before heading to this group he gave me a task to inspire faith into them. It was then when I felt out of place where I knew I had to get out of my comfort zone and build relationship with them. It was like crazy and hell like feeling. I remember praying like mad inside after our dinner together before entering a time of worship. But God is faithful and he has his ways of opening their hearts with me individually. The hostile feelings were broken on the second day where I had to intentionally speak with them. It felt like camp? Yesterday I only ended my day at 2 ought in the morning. Before I left, I had time to speak to those whom I planned too. I remember telling David from Germany that I would want to spend time with him at 4pm and I had to end my conversation with Stef at 315pm because I promised him that i will meet him. The hardest wall that God helped me to broke was Marsul because he’s not from the church. I thank God that he gave me a word for him and later I discover it was what he went through. This entire Berlin stay made me even closer with God. I really like talking to Floyrain on the second night because he was brutally honest about his life. That same goes for David, Felix and Johannes. I guess what I really love speaking to these brothers from both churches is their honesty with struggles and not hiding. Speak about being tough on ourselves I saw it from some of their lives.
Well, that’s a little for what happened in Hope Germany. There are lots more stuff that happened and inspiration that I’ve caught. Even for the part of getting a girlfriend. (:
Thinking back, I’ll take time off tomorrow to spend some time with God and consolidate all my thoughts. I guess the question still remains, if I were to head to Germany and study. I guess it’s time re work out the finance. God, this isn’t a easy decision. I guess I really have to think about it if I want to head over to plant church. Part of me wants to do it, but I need God to help me. Honestly, does building up what I want for myself matters that much or bringing others to Christ? God, I seriously can’t decide. I would want to go if there are finance given. God, I ask of you to open opportunities and show me where you want me to go. God, I pray that you will show me more even as I spent time with you tomorrow. Father, please prepare yourself to speak to me. I know you don’t need preparation but I want to hear from you. (: God, thanks!
The ride to the next destination is going to be long but I hope I’ll make it worthwhile with you.
Quote from Marcus:
If you are not ready to give your whole life, you are not ready for Europe.
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