James2:5

⁵ Listen, my dear brothers and sisters: Has not God chosen those who are poor in the eyes of the world to be rich in faith and to inherit the kingdom he promised those who love him?

Today marks the 16th day of mine in Deutschland and come tomrrow I will be heading back to the little island. Part of me feels excitied to be back at the familar roads, singlish, rice and the people whom have been resonating in my life. While the other part yearns to stay here a little while more but I guess that would be all over in a few hours.

I’m particurally glad to be in Wiesbaden for the past three days because solitiude is much practice here for myself. I spent hours reconstructing my life- though it is not exactly done. That’s why in the coming few hours, the construction would be done and I am ready to head back to the little island of my own.

My days in Germany taught me a lot on how to lay back in the presence of God and not let time rush me by. I love the moments where I read his word, taking time to pray and examing my life under the authortiy of his word. I’m honored to have friends who send me mails as if I would be gone for many years. Sometimes, it is times like these that make one realize who are the friends that one can count on. Though this isn’t an total factual statement.

After having breakfast with Bread and more bread (haven’t you heard, that bread has become one of my favourite food over here), I decided to write a quick entry before I continue to reconstructure my life.

After taking a shower this morning, I resided onto a chair with a glass of apple sparkingly juice with a bible in my plam. There I was, desiring to read his word but yet i know i had to pray longer to be in tune with the spirit. So instead of reading his word, i resided back praying earnestly with love like fire at the background.

After praying, I then read his word from James 2. While praying, I asked the Lord to give me wisdom and so he did from his word.

The above verse caught my naked eye.

Realize that only the poor is able to inherit Kingdom of God.

We live our lives thinking why doesn’t the blessings and victories of The Kingdom of God not illuminating in our lives. But the very problem that one fails to see is that we are too rich with our knowledge, pride, wealth and achievements that these hands are so full. That being said, we definitely do not have any space in our hands to inherit the Kingdom of God.

Unless we are emptied again, then we can be filled if not we are simply to full to be filled.

The challenge for oneself is to always live a life that can be emptied again and again. This is so difficult for even myself because when God has blessed us after we empty ourselves we feel that we have gain all these by our mere efforts that it is so difficult to let it go. But we do not reckon to the fact that we do not own any of these but it was he who gave to us initially.

So pity are those and even myself that we keep holding our lives so tight, thinking we are the owners of everything but failing to realize that we are actually stewards.

The challenge is not to be emptied but to be emptied again and again.

Truthfully speaking, it’s difficult. Painful would be the word. An empty tanks worries that he will not be filled but it takes trust for the tank to know that the rain will come and fill him up again.

Rain will come, but the only question is when would it come. This is why this is the most difficult part of being emptied again over and over again.

So Dear David,

I’m being crystal clear with you. Be emptied over again and again.

Will you, David Hoe?

God

God,

Ouch. I want. I think this is the second step so far and I can see that what is to come would be even more painful. Give me wisdom.

David Hoe

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