Thank God, that it’s finally Sunday! I wouldn’t have scrape through my entire last week without friends that allow me to rant such as Sentosa, Joshua, Xin Ru and my beloved NC3. Truly appreciate those words such as JIA YOU from Xin ru and not forgetting my sweet fabulous care group who send me a long text of affirmation. 
Thank You, friends. But most importantly, i really want to shout out to God for sustaining me throughout these few days with your presence.
Though the week has come to an end, i still choose not to plan it because as promise i insist on spending an extended time with my Lord. Tentatively, it would be a Thursday! Well, i still choose not to think about it until tomorrow.
Even as my day is shutting it’s wings toward me, the thought of work tomorrow somehow detest me to the core of my being. But still, you will find a way into my heart.
I LOVE SUNDAY. LIKE SERIOUSLY.
and i’m a lousy friend! I haven’t even celebrate Keith and Jang birthday! Plus my hair is too long. Need to cut it.
One republic- Say all i need
Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it
Did you trade it for something, somewhere
Better just to have it
Do you know where your love is
Do you think that you lost it
You felt it so strong but nothings
Turned out how you want it
Well bless my soul
You`re a lonely soul
Cause you wont let go
Of anything you hold
Well all I need is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head
It has been some time since i last took a long hot shower. Allowing those water to be one with my hair and flow downwards without the limitation of time. It just feels so good when i can let my fingers slowly massage my head, face and even my body. Thought that this was one of the best way to start slowing down with God.
What i really long, crave, desire, hope, wish and desperately yearn is just to take a break from this never-ending hurdle that i have to cross daily. The thought of what are to come next after each individual huddle seems horrifying. It’s the similar feeling that what i was experiencing last year around this window of time. But even thought it may seem never-ending, i clearly know and i truly rely on God to empower me. The huddles in front of me seems intimidating but God you have to run with me together.
But more than crossing those obstacles, i just want to take a break very soon. Maybe next week. I insist on one. I need time alone with God, in the track, pool, hill and cafe. It’s time to once again take a break and find my first love. I need to spend extended time with author of life. God, though there are still heaps of challenges, sustain me till then with your presence and your strength. God, in the midst of the many things i do not ask of you to remove them but i just long for more of your presence. I want to go through the struggle and pain with you with me. Thank You, be with me
Even as i say these, there are still many things that are undone.
Planning for care group tomorrow
Catching up with Aaron
the aftermath of north CLM
North C unit overnight
camp
NORTH C
Deployment on a Sunday morning at 4.30am
Tuition with many 4 groups
University choices- overseas
SLEEP
EXERCISE?
By the way, this list only survives till Sunday. All the above mentioned items are things that i have to really think and pray through. So honestly, i just need a break! God, I’m certainly determined that come next week there will be an entire day between you and me only. NO ONE ELSE. This also means, we need to think about university choices too. I doubt that can be done by Sunday.
So God, let your presence be with me. I need to slow down.
Alright, enough of pouring out already. It’s time to get back into planning, but before that i shall pray. The time is 1.24am. Goodness. God, let’s do this together You and me.
hoe
Pain is inevitable while suffering is optional.
GP students, what do you think? Just kidding.
Anyhow, the clock is tickling its way at 5.20am and I’m writing a post because of my aftermath of viewing photos. – that’s so incoherent. Rather I’m writing this because i just want to pour out my thoughts on some photos which i saw awhile ago and other mundane reasons. Coherent enough?
Firstly, it’s because i have to stay up at this counter in hope that no single soul will cross that barrier till 8 in the morning.
Secondly, i’m relatively bored. However, with the aid of this netbook and my new book given by Keith on what i talk about when i talk about running has kept me awake for the last hour or so?
Thirdly, i’m still dumbfounded or even lost for words. When i see how people have changed over the past few years.
I wonder if i’m amazed, insecure or even just blown away?
Some girls just become what i would thought they will never be. Obviously, much more prettier. Maybe, metro is the next in things for some skinny and pretty girls. While some guys value is labeled by the brands. Goodness, i think for some reasons i might have caught up with my age by insecurity. alright, this sounds so … but as word press puts it express myself.
Alright, time to time of love relationship between my book and this soul.
hoe
Filed under: events, health, just my favourites, likings, random thoughts, relationships
A delightful day with many laudable events except for the run that was cerebral. I have always thought that all stadium tracks in Singapore are of a ‘nation’ class level until the horrendous bumps in Woodlands stadium met my legs today. It was a firebrand to my run because i had to fix my eyes to the ground instead of looking at what was ahead of me. That being that, it was over after a 10 rounds Well, the swimming complex was only slightly better but still insignificant in comparison to the others. With a tent over the competition pool, that might explains for the nature of skin colour in Woodlands. From hindsight, i would never choose to have my usual work out in the vicinity of my ministry.
From the above mentioned activities, my beloved toe is unbridled from those stitches and i am free to run, swim and attempt soccer! On a side note, i think i will support Liverpool.
In any case, what were laudable are the fantastic prayer meet ran by my care group, shepherding with both Isabel and Meow Wei separately and not forgetting the quick recuperation of my precious toe.
When was the last time did God ask you to do the unthinkable?
hoe
Filed under: family, friends, likings, my endeavor, random thoughts, relationships
I love my new heart! So glad that the old heart is taken away within minutes and here comes the new one that is beating alive and fresh in my body and soul! 
I’m loving it
Anyhow! I just want to shout it out loud that i really respect the people in my NC3.Though outwardly we might look like any other people, but they individuals who loves God by putting him as priority and stand up for this family. Honestly, this is one care group that have changed my entire perspective.
I heart my new heart.
Presenting Isabel and Sharon!
the MEOW wei!
JIA LING!
Isabel and Sharon again. But this time Isabel wearing shades!
Jamie!
JUST HIM.
hoe
Humans are both resistant and adaptable to changes. The motivation behind either respond simply lies if they ever see any worth in it.
Not everyone is born a leader, but they choose to be a leader. A leader doesn’t start with just a sudden urge rather an inspiration, vision or direction. Far more than that, the leader who sustains is someone who has personalized it for themselves. When one is called a leader, the notion would be they are self motivated to pursue their dreams and passion. So by this, there is a shift in personality if they were phlegmatic in the past. Hence, the personality changes with respect to the position expectation. But the truth is, who will choose to take on a new suit of personality unless they see the worth in it.
Young ones, dream. Internalized your vision, dreams and all for that will keep you focus till the end. But what will sustain you, is the fuel from within.
there’s nothing wrong with protecting, but what about over protection?
when we over protect, we may only be controlling instead.
so i rather to let you have a taste of your own medicine even after warning you so those scars may teach you how make decisions.
Filed under: random thoughts
instead of saying no to certain forms, we should embrace why not?
honestly, let’s not over react to certain forms of actions which we are not familiar with but weight it with the truth.
forms are not verdicts, but breaking the forms to the reasons will be a well verdict.
that all guys are born egoistic.
No matter how reserve will he be, there is a side of him competitive which varies from one to another.
or should i put it, humans are competitive?
Still, i would think that guys are wired to be determine, passionate and boundless of energy which could be channeled to what is eternal than those flings of temporal love.
Guys, where are your boundless energy going?
Filed under: convictions, friends, just my favourites, my endeavor, race, random thoughts
though we keep searching, but there was no common topic
though we tried, but we just can’t connect the chemistry
as hard as we pull through those minutes, there was this moment of awkwardness that lingers despite the endless navigating conversation.
as uncomfortable as it might seems, it was certainly treasured. It felt that we haven’t talk for years, and that is true. What left a imprint in my heart over the few minutes is that i know this friendship is built upon something that is eternal.
Thanks for taking the initiative to move out from your seat, and walked the short distance to have a short conversation.
This makes church friendship different from the rest, because through the years of silence because of physical limitations i know that the friendship will never be lost.
It seems like it was years, but the connection and warmth restored within seconds.
Thanks Samuel.
hoe
